Why? - a Drarry Fanfic

Chapter 33

Draco

"Alright. Explain. Everything, I want to know everything. From why you left to what you were doing to why now."

Severus is sitting against the headboard of my bed. Me and Harry are both sitting in front of him, waiting. 

He takes in a shaky breath before he starts. "I left because a few Death Eaters who hadn't died or been captured thought I was still alive. They were already doubting my loyalty, doubting what side I was on. Apparently, they went to take my wand from my grave, only to find I was nowhere to be seen, and neither was my wand."

"Wait, who told you!?" Someone knew he was alive! Bloody bastard told someone, and it wasn't me! 

"A friend," he replies. "Now shut it and listen because I'm only going over this once. Said friend told me to go into hiding for a while, to lay low. So I did. I went to my childhood home, I was there for two months. Then they found me."

He takes in another breath. I hate this. I want the old Severus back, when he was a complete arse, but at least he could sleep. At least that Severus wasn't so scared of everything, scared of people. The old Severus could sneak up on students without them knowing. Now, it's as if he's waiting for someone to get him.

"The Death Eaters found me. Five against one, I would've never won, so I hid my wand in a safe. No matter what they did, they couldn't get my wand, so then they started torturing me. They used crucio, imperio, sometimes they would point their wand at my head and say the killing curse, but it would hit the wall, the floor, the ceiling, but it always started pointed at me. I always thought it would hit me.

"Then they took my memories by force. They made me relive loads of stuff. My father, the Dark Lord, Nagini, everything. It was awful. But, eventually they stopped. They got too tired, I guess, and decided to sleep in my sitting room, so that they could watch over me. They took shifts, and that's how it was for the next month. Over that time, they started doing it manually. It doesn't matter. One night they got their shifts mixed up or something, and all five of them passed out. I stole a wand, got out of the ropes they had me in, and got my own wand from the safe. I left. After that, I just went from motel to motel, I couldn't stay in the same place for long. Finally, finally I got a Prophet saying they had been captured. I waited for the trial, they all got the Kiss, so I came out of hiding."

"Harry, can you... can you go for a moment?" I ask. He gives me a look, clearly doubting if he should leave or not. "It will be fine, but I have some questions and I doubt he's going to tell me anything while you're here."

"Fine." He trudges out of the room and shuts the door. I hear him slide down it and sit on the floor, so I cast a silencing charm. "Sev-"

"I'm not answering any question, even if that prat is gone." Ah, so he does have some of old Sev in him. "Don't call him a prat, that's my boyfriend and you know that."

"Just another reason why I should call him a prat. What do you want?" he snarls. "Are you okay?" I reply. It wasn't what he was expecting, I know that. He thought it was going to be an interrogation, or I was going to scream at him. But I'm not. That won't help anyone, especially not him. 

"Sev, you've been through hell and back. You're the only family I have left. Are you okay?"

"You really think I'm okay?!" he yells. "No, I don't."

"Then why even bother asking?! Goddammit, you are one of the only people who know what my father did. Now this. I've cut off my last link with Lily, countless people want me dead, Lights and Darks. They had a bloody snake bite at me, just to remind me of Nagini, Draco. So no. I'm not okay. I'm pretty sure I'd be better off dead than alive at this point."