Fated

chapter 29

(Josh)

My eyes cant seem to snap out of what is happening besides me,i watch her moving around hushing the perfect human that i much as her contributed is amazing, she is holding delicately at him like he would fall down and break, he is balancing his head with her palm while the rest is holding his body, her movements should be annoying considering she is making me dizzy but somehow they mesmerizing i want to sit here and watch her do that every freaking day , i can't help the smile that suddenly grew on my mouth no matter how much i try to suppress it.  Would it be wrong of me to want to put another one that resemble her just to have a copy of her for the rest of my life, but maybe when she does get her heat again i could be off assistance again, the beautiful night we had that resulted in a seed growing still replays on my mind like a broken CD , i can still do it right , i shook my head getting rid of this thoughts i had, i needed a grip on myself, its been a week , the week spent with her made me feel something, something different from the bond , i refuse to accept i was falling for my mate. My thoughts are cut shot when the is a door knock, the loud wails had subside and replaced with total silence, not wanting to wake up the pup i stood up and walked to the door , i creak it open extending my head out, Lizzy wasn't comfortable yet for anyone to see the child but she would be forced to during her ceremony.

"Alpha blood moon pack is here to see you the guards at the borders are wondering if they should let them in" Aaron says i nod my heard indicating I'll be there in a moment he gets my message because he leaves i turn looking at Lizzy normally am good at reading expressions but lately i had been failing to do that job towards her.

"So i have to go" i don't know why i felt the need to but i did,she blankly looks at me before the door behind me is closed, i tilt my head looking at her.

"Oh yeah right telekinesis" she rolls her eyes i shake my head before heading out , my footsteps echo in the empty hallway i yawn in tiredness after spending half the night awake its normal, its now that i realize how big the pack house is when i take approximately 5  minutes just to reach the end of the empty hallway, i reach the stairs and balance in the railway before slowly walking down, second floor is not as empty as the first floor its just like always busy with everyone walking around doing what they do on normal basis half of them bow their heads in respects while the other half its either the mother is running after the pup to dress them up, or old pups focusing on their cellphones, eventually i reach down the stairs which is busier , my feet drag me outside when i reach the outside , half of the warriors are standing outside , Aaron is right besides my side in minute and my Gamma well he still at moonshine pack trying to negotiate with them , i don't find it complete fair to have a treaty with them while they small pack and not beneficial towards us while we have the exact resources we have for them, with blood moon pack we practically in the same league they have the resources and we do too,i yawn yet again results of having a pup, i wait impatiently until the black SUV stood right besides us , the warriors are ready to pounce on them preparing themselves.

"Good Morning Alpha Josh" he says as soon as he stood up from the car, two more SUVs stood behind his , my warriors don't return the bow of respect ofcause he might feel disrespected but we don't have a treaty so they have to be prepared all the times for unexpected attacks.

"Morning Alpha Xavier " i respond too we stood facing each other before he dismisses his warriors leaving his Beta, i lead him to my office with Aaron following behind me, when i do settle on the comfortable chair all i wish is to close my eyes and sleep away the day, now i regret why i changed the uncomfortably chair that my father was using, slowly on this chair I'll fall asleep.

"Alpha" Aaron snapes me out of my thoughts i look at him nodding my head for privacy , he leaves closing the door behind him making me yawn yet again.

"My apologise " i say he nods at.

"I understand the full time job pups are, i have one myself and expecting another anytime now"he says understandably i close my eyes leaning back before opening them again.

"I can't imagine myself with another not anytime soon atleast " i ease the situation letting our guards down atleast.

"You should visit with your Mate sometime you know " he says i nod my head at him before learning forward to get down to business.
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The situation has lessen the thickness of seriousness around us, everyone had ease and just enjoying the meal prepared across us, to say am famished would be an understatement, am starving i could eat a whole cow, am tired that i could sleep the whole day and Jas is cramped wanting to atleast go for a run , am saving the energy for the next two days when the new Luna takes the pack for the first run, when we have our first run together somehow that idea excites me more than anything, something deep down my heart cames to halt at the realisation and what Jas was saying.

"I love her" my heart drops down on my stomach and my heart literally beats loudly that my ears detected and caughts the movement, my conscious tells me to run upstairs and tell her am bursting with the news, am impatient to go and talk to her.

"Yeah right as if she will be happy and embrace that when you've been nothing but an ass" i physically flinch at his words,

1.i collared my mate
2.i pushed my mate away
3.i been giving away the most important thing towards another she-wolfs.

The thought of everything makes me want to bury my head into the toilet and puke my utensils out.
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After the few hours of sleep i had , i woke up and had to prepare for the ceremony downstairs the was a celebration for the new treaty we had , ofcause Lizzy was forced to come leaving Caelan with an Omega. The sky was beautiful even though the wasn't any full moon but it was there making it predictable that in few days the will be a full moon. My eyes snap to Lizzy who isn't finding all this interesting but she is drinking her self away, i watch as she gulps one after the other.

"Am glad we did this, it was long overdue "Xavier says i nod my head trying to minimize the Alcohol i drink tonight, I've decided this is finally the night, i cant let these feelings consume me,my eyes run around the area and the spot where Lizzy was is empty ,loneliness fills the place.

"Am glad too i think it has always been pride stopping us from reaching this point,while you here i need to discuss the hunters issue, we had located them but we found the spot vacated but i know that they left few hours before we arrived did you any by chance locate them" i ask before an uncomfortably feeling over takes me, the feeling turns away from uncomfortably to burning sensation right at my gut, my insides burn that i gulp the remaining glass of whisky and pour another it takes few minutes before realisation of what the feeling is overtakes me,NO.