Fated

chapter 32

(Lizzy)

I closed my eyes for a moment exhaling before looking at him, he was dead serious not even a tint of emotion did he display.

"Why" i uttered my mouth failing to filter the words, failing to sugar coat them but i display them as raw as they are. "I mean why now, why after everything you've put me through" i uttered yet again he closed his eyes.

"I know am sorry..."i shook my head as tears rolled down my eyes uncontrollably, every emotion i had been suppressing came back, anger,humiliation,shame and rejection.

"You don't get to tell me you sorry and move on with life happily after this, do you know the emotional pain you've put me through nevermind the physically, being collared is far better than knowing your mate , the only person i know was made for me was mating with someone, the pain i endured every night ,the humiliation of being marked against my will, having to constantly report my whereabouts "i take a deep breath wiping the tears but they fail to stop crawling out , i shiver as the cold water hits my skin, the water isn't as warm as it was.

"I know..." i shook my head again as he dropped  his head in shame.

"You don't know shit Josh, you know nothing emotionally am drained, I've actually made peace that no matter what I'll never be good enough for you,the only hopeful think i have now is my son , our son" i took a deep breath wiping the tears yet again as they burn my cheeks.

"My answer is yes, I'll marry you Josh not because am hoping for a happily ever after but because am Luna now, i have to set up a good example for the pack, in order to live this pretentious life then I'll marry you " i cupped his face yet again "you don't have to fight for me but think of the pack, think of your son , the first words, first steps, the first everything you will miss and come back for that" i said yet again before he quitely pick me up and wrapped me around a fluffy towel before he walked to the bedroom, he wiped me before lotioning me, my scars had healed but he didn't need to know, unlike humans after giving birth my body just took few days to heal.

"Where is my son" i asked he bitten his lower lip thoughtfully, hurt portrayed on his face that i felt horrible,and i wanted to wrap my arms around him and assure him I'll always be here , but my heart wouldn't open up for another rejection.

"You should feel horrible, you've hurt our mate" Dara snapped i could feel the venom she was spitting,her anger was tasteful from here on.

"Have you forgot what he did to us" i spit back angrily.

"But he is remorseful i know it, i can feel his wolf trying to reach out to us just allow him i know he won't hurt us" she begged lowely this was first her doing that.

"So what we should be happy like nothing happened "i asked rolling my eyes.

"If you don't then trust me I'll happily do it" she said huffing before closing the link, i shook my head looking at the quite Josh , he was quitely lotioning me, he took longer than suppose to on my breast, he brushed my hardening nipples he bitten his lower lip focusing his eyes on them , i cleared my throat.

"No" he shook his head at that i tilted my head curiously "i don't want you to marry me because you feel obliged too, but i want it to be out of your free will " he said i felt my heart clenching didn't he want me anymore, was he looking for a reaction towards me when he asked ,why am i even suprised, a soft knock on the door brought our heads off our thoughts before i could even deny the person access the door flew open, Josh was quick to push me on my back to the bed and got on top of me hiding my nakedness ,his bulge pressed right on my labia i gasped.

"Opsie i didn't know you were busy but this fella was cranky" Martin said as Caelan was beginning to let out cries, my first insticts was getting him hence i tried pushing Josh away from me but he held my hands tighter pushing me back down,i could feel his crouch growing.

"Put him on the cor
t and Martin we knock when we enter private rooms understand "he firmly said i could feel him taking the frustration on poor Martin.

"Yes Alpha" he said hesitantly before walking to put Caelan in his cot and softly closing the door behind him.

"I think his gone now " i said moving my hips away from temptation the friction earns me a groan from him, his gaze burn my skin he clears his throat and got of.

"I think i have a meeting with my Beta i have to go" he said between clench teeth i nodded standing up he backed away slowly from me still looking at me not wanting to take his eyes away from me i could feel him looking for the door handle i chuckled he joined in before he turned around and walked out, i turned to Caelan.