DEANNA'S POV
Pagkadating ko sa dorm ay humiga ako agad sa bed dahil ang sakit pa talaga ng ulo ko, malapit na akong makatulog ng may biglang humila ng unan na naka takip sa mukha ko
"what the!!!..." sa sobrang inis ko ay sinigawan ko agad ito not realizing na it's ate Jia, tsk sinundan pa talaga ako dito
"ano? What kind of attitude is that Deanna?" galit na tanong ni ate Jia na naka tayo ngayon sa harapan ko, umupo na lang din ako sa bed dahil di na rin naman ako makakatulog nito tsk
"what attitude? Wag nyo na nga akong paki alaman pare-pareho lang kayo eh" sagot ko dito
"did you hear what your saying? Get your acts together Deanna hindi ka na bata" - ate Ji
"then stop treating me like a child!! Hindi ko naman sinabi na bantayan nyo ako ah" sumbat ko dito
"stop acting like an immature child too!! Ng dahil lang sa babae nawalan ka na ng modo!!" sigaw nya sa akin
"palibhasa kasi di kayo yung nakaranas ng iniwan, di kasi kayo yung naloko that's why it is easy for you to say such a thing"
"iniwan ka kaya mang iiwan ka rin? Did you realize all the sacrifices that your team made for you? I think not cause your occupied to the thought na iniwan ka, na nasaktan ka. Did you even realize that you leave Ponggay your best friend, you just broke your promise to Jho who is always there for you, do you even realize how selfish you are? Alam mo ba mga pinag gagawa nila Maddie para di ka pagalitan ng mga coaches diba hindi kasi sarili mo lang iniisip mo" sumbat ni ate Jia sa akin habang umiiyak, those words just blow the hell out of me... What am I doing?
"you disappoint us Deanna" huling sabi ni ate Jia sabay labas ng kwarto it takes time for me to absorb all of that
I decided na sundan sya, tumakbo ako palabas ng kwarto pero hinarang ako ni ate Bea
"let her muna Deans baka masampal ka pa non" sabi nya sabay hila sa akin papunta sa car ko
"where are we going ate? I'll follow ate Jia, I made her cry ate Bei"
"look at you, you're so wasted do you think pag nakita ka rin ni ate Ly na ganyan matutuwa yun? Let's stay sa condo mo muna sermon lang din aabutin mo sa dorm if you'll stay there" ate Bea said while driving my car papuntang condo
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"tsk, do you call this a condo Deans?" reklamo ni ate Bea habang nag liligpit ng mga kalat ko
"haysss just feel at home ate matutulog muna ako" sabi ko sabay pasok ng kwarto
"home my ass" rinig kong bulong nya
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"hey deans wake up" dinig kong gising ni ate Bei sa akin
"take a shower na and sunod ka sa kitchen" sabi ni ate Bea
Paglabas nya ng kwarto ay naligo na ako at pumunta ng kitchen, I saw ate Bea serving our food
"let's eat na"
"thank you ate Bei, thanks for cleaning my condo and for this food kanina pa pala ako hindi naka kain" sabi ko dito lunch na pala pero ngayon pa lang ako kumain
"don't mention it na, by the way after this let's buy some stock dito sa condo mo dinaig mo pa yung bar sa dami ng beer mo jan" ate Bei suggested
"ok ate I'll buy some peace offering na rin for ate Ji" malungkot na saad ko dito ng maalala ko yung ginawa ko
"don't be sad na ma o-ok din yun"
Pagkatapos naming kumain ay nag grocery na kami which takes so much time dahil wala naman kaming masyadong alam sa bibilhin namin kaya kung ano lang makita namin na necesarry binili namin agad and I buy gift na rin for ate Jia after that ay bumalik kami sa condo ko.
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We are here sa living room ng condo watching movie but our attention is not on the T. V. ate Bea is staring on her beer while I'm just busy drinking sa pineapple juice na ginawa nya for me no more alcohol na daw for me.
"kamusta ate Bei?" pag basag ko sa katahimikan, she chuckled and look at me
"lagi tayong magkasama but we don't know how we feel haha but I'm good naman how about you?"
"eto mag mo-move on na I waste so much time na finding answers to my unending questions maybe it's really good for me to let go para mabawasan na din sakit ng ulo nyo haha" I said and gave her a slight smile
"let me tell you a secret, Jho and me broke up na din... " I was shock sa sinabi nya but I stay silent and let her continue
"we end our relationship the day na tinalo tayo ng FEU, sa side kasi nya they don't totally accept our relationship her mom and dad accept us naman pero yung ibang relatives nya sinusumbatan yung parents nya why they let their daughter have a relationship sa kagaya ko, at first we just ignore it pero nung nakita namin mismo yung pag iyak ni tita dahil sa sinasabi ng iba that's when I realize kung paano na nahihirapan si Jho just to keep our relationship, you know nothing hurts me more seeing my girl crying dahil wala syang magawa para sa parents nya. All Jho did was make her parents proud but because of our relationship nasasaktan na sya, because she's in a relationship with a girl iniinsulto sila so we decided to end it na, we both decided to end it para hindi na kami makasakit"
ate Bei is now crying I didn't know na ganito na pala ang nangyayari sa kanila, that time hindi lang pala ako ang nasasaktan my team also need me not as their setter but as a friend pero wala ako, tama nga si ate Jia I'm so selfish sarili ko lang iniisip ko naging pabigat pa ako
"sorry to hear that ate but how did you handle it? How did you handle the pain?"
"you know Deans if you will focus on the pain may possibility talaga na you can't handle it well, when I love your ate Jho all I did was to show and gave her what she deserves, I didn't aim na she will love me in return but unexpectedly she did and for me that's just a bonus cause the biggest reward that I received sa lahat ng efforts na pinakita ko sa kanya was her smile and how she genuinely appreciated me, sobrang sakit makipag hiwalay kahit mahal mo pa but remembering those feeling ng kami pa? How happy and contented I am? How to feel that I've been loved by someone, sobrang worth it nung sakit Deans, she will be the sweetest memory and the fruitful lesson na I will treasure and besides we're still friends so basically hindi talaga ako nawalan" I admire how ate Bea handled it well she really is a fighter
"sorry for not fulfilling my promise kay ate Jho and sa team ate" sabi ko dito I feel ashamed for what I did
"ano ka ba kung may unang makaka intindi sayo you know it would be Jho, bago sya umalis binilin ka pa nya sa akin haha o diba nanay na nanay ang datingan hahaha" ate Bea trying to light up the mood
"give me a hug I really miss you man haha tagal mong natauhan ah" napatawa na lang ako sa kanya god, I miss ate Jho, I miss my team
Pag bitaw ko ay nagulat ako ng bigla akong binatukan ni ate Bea
"hey what was that for??"
"hoy bata dapat sa akin ka talaga mag sorry remember yung nag away kayo ni Ponggay, tinarayan lang naman ako ni Kat bakit daw umuwi ako ng hindi ka kasama and naging utusan din ako ni Maddie, lagot ka rin dun high blood sayo yun" ate Bea
"sakit non ah, oo na I'll make bawi sa team and sorry na din and thank you" seryosong sabi ko nito
"just bring the old Deanna back yun lang naka bawi ka na sa akin ewan ko lang sa team bago ka kasi pinuntahan kanina ni ate Jia pinagalitan nya kami pati nga yung mga rookies takot na takot kay ate Ji, tinadtad din ng sermon si Maddie and Kat dahil pinabayaan ka daw kaya for sure grabeng bawi talaga yun hahaha"
Hayss pati sila nadamay sa akin I really should make it up to them.
Ate Bea decided na dito na matulog, she also cook dinner for us and we play video game until we get tired and decided to sleep..
