Maybe We're More Than That ∽ c.d

Chapter 22: Missed

Kristen's POV

"Good morning, Kristen." a familiar voice said. I rubbed my eyes and tried to open it slowly. When my eyes were opened wide, I saw there. it was Gina smiling. "Hey, we're not gonna be late for the funeral today." she said. I gave her a smile. I hopped out from the bed lazily.

I went to look myself at the mirror. I smiled. "You're a strong, woman." I said. I took my towel and went to shower.

After a quick shower, I dried my hair. I curled my hair at the end. I wore a black dress and a black heels. I put a little make up. Just some mascara and lipstick.

I went downstairs and took Cammie from the baby car. I stroked his long thick hair and kissed his head. He was wearing a tuksedo.

"Breakfast?" Gina asked. I nodded. I put Cammie in the baby chair. I gave him the plastic spoon for him to play so he won't cry.

I took a slice of pancakes. A tear dropped on the pancake. I sobbed and Gina rubbed my back. Sierra who was in front of me, she held my hand. I looked at the ground. "It's okay." Gina said. I hugged her then.

At The Funeral

"Kristy, it's your time to speak." my dad said. I nodded and took my special speech for Cameron that I wrote ages ago. As I took it out, I gripped it in my hand. I put my hand down and started my speech spontaneous.

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We hugged a lot of people. We thanked them too for coming.

Stacie hugged me tightly. "Be strong, okay? I know you can go through this all." she said. I wiped my tears and faked a smile."I love you." she said. "I love you too." I replied. 

Nash came with tears and hugged me. "I'm sorry." he said sniffing his nose. "I'm sorry too, Nash." I replied sadly. "Be strong." he said. "You too, Hamilton." I teased. He hit my arm slowly and I smiled. "Don't call me that." he said then walked away. He grabbed Stacie's hand and intwertwined it. He kissed her in the cheek. The walked drunkly. But they weren't drunk.

"Mkay, we're done. Let's go." dad said. I brought Cammie in my hip and took my keys. I went to my car and put Cammie in the baby seat.

I drove a little longer. I arrived at my house. I took Cammie and put him in his baby car. I threw myself at the sofa. I put both of my hands on my forehead.

"Kristen?" a familiar voice said. I turned behind and saw dad, Dave, Karen, James, Sierra and Gina. "Let's go upstairs." Sierra said. She grabbed my waist and I was still sitting. "I'm tired." I replied lazily. "For a while." she said made the puppy face. I chuckled and shook my head.

I quickly ran upstairs with Sierra. We went to Cameron and I's room. I leaned at the door. "So?" I asked. She took a box full of things under our bed. "Here." she smiled. She tap my shoulder and went out.

As I kneeled down, I took out a picture. It was our picture. Our silly faces and our graduate pictures. I chuckled and my vision was blurred. I felt salty liquid streamed down my face. Until, I found a paper in an envelope. I took the envelope and opened it.

Dear Kristen,
                   It's Cameron. I'm at the tree right now! At the place where we suppose to be everyday and right now. Talking about last night, you told me it was an accident but I didn't believe you. I do but I just can't believe you because you did it twice in front of my eyes and of course you didn't do it but I'm sorry I convinced it was you. Right now, I kinda believe you because when you talked to me I can see sparkles in your eyes mean you didn't lie to me. You never lie to me, right? Except if you have some excuses I do believe your lies but I know. And which make my heart bleed when you kissed Liam at school. You exclaimed that he is your boyfriend. And I'm your ex. It hurts. Last night, you threw your necklace at me which make me hurt more. But I thank you, you accepted the necklace again, today. I made you wasted your tears every day and I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Although we break up but I still love you. You're my favorite volcano because I "lava" you. I love you to the moon and back, ifinite and beyond and every shit love things.
             I   L O V E   Y O U  ❤
        
                                     -Cam xx

I cried every words I read. I heard his voice like he's the one who read it. I held my 'C+K' necklace that he gave me on my 20th birthday. He was writing it ages ago when we were still students. When we broke up. I chuckled when I read the last sentence. I wonder did he ever found my love speech for him? Did he? I don't think so. If he do, he would tell.

I took my speech paper and decided to not read it. I put everything that Cameron and I's stuff in the box. Except for my necklace. I was glad that he wore his necklace when he 'died'.

I wish he was here but no matter how much I begged, he would never come back.

Never.

"Sis?". I turned behind and saw Dave. "Yeah?" I replied sadly. "Come here. " he said sticking his arms out mean that he wanted to hug me. I stand and hugged him tightly. He kissed the top of my head and I cried a bit on his chest. "Stay strong, okay?" he said. I nodded in our hug. We hugged so long and finally, I pulled out. I wiped my tears and he lifted my chin up so I can look at him in the eyes. "I love you, sis. You know it right?" he asked. "Yeah." I replied. He smiled and ran downstairs.

A/N: IMPORTANT GUISE

I CHANGED MY USERNAME TO lukedhems96 SO PLEASE DON'T CONFUSE!!! YA KNOW IM A HUGE FAN OF 5SOS RIGHT -jenna