If This Is Love 2

Part 20

I sat down beside my bed as I wrapped my arms around my legs hiding my face in between, this was something I couldn't be strong about no matter how much I tried.

I could feel the tears dropping down my eyes and there was nothing I could do to stop them, whoever that man was, he ruined everything for me, he ruined how I was always going to feel about Arnav's touch, it was because of him that I was like this today, that I had been pushing people away.

Everything seemed to be making sense for me now, I rarely trusted any guy, I always pushed them away because deep down I was scared they were going to do to me what he did.

Although I still couldn't remember it very well, there were blurry images in my mind, and they were never going to go away, just because of that freaking man!

For a moment I wanted to get out of my room and go find him and kill him but killing him wouldn't be a punishment enough, he needed to feel as terrible as I felt when he abused me, who the hell was he even? I was just a four year old girl, how could he do that to me?

Why was this world so unfair?

I heard a knock at the door of my room and chose to ignore it, I knew it must be mum trying to make sure I was okay, but honestly, I wasn't! No one was ever going to be okay after being through something like this.

"Khushi, open the door please." I heard dad's voice.

I stood up immediately and wiped off my tears as I headed to open the door, the only person I wouldn't ever avoid was dad.

I saw him standing in front of me and everything inside me broke apart suddenly, I just couldn't pretend to be okay in front of him, I was always his little girl, he loved me and cared about me so much, he wouldn't stand seeing me unhappy or anything.

"Dad." I said as I jumped on him and hugged him tight, sobbing like a baby, I had never thought that there would come a day when I was going to cry like this, I had always been the kind of a person who rarely cried.

"It's okay Khushi, I understand what you are going through." He said as he held me tightly in his arms.

He kept holding me until I felt better, he then broke the hug and looked at me, he tucked the strands of hair falling on my face and cupped my face looking at me keenly.

"I am sorry you had to go through it, your mother told me everything and I am so sorry that I wasn't able to save you from it. Trust me, it's the only thing I regret each and every day of my life.

Just like your mother, I thought you grew up and forgot about it but scars like those are too deep to be forgotten." He said. I agreed, those scars were too deep to be ever forgotten.

"You don't have to apologize to me dad, it wasn't your fault, if it was anyone's fault then it was that man!" I said as anger took over me, all I wanted to do was go find him and do something terrible to him so he could know what he had done to me.

"I know Khushi, and if it makes you feel any better just know that I did not let him go that easily, I did everything I could to make sure he got punished terribly for what he had done to my little girl. All I want right now is for you to be okay, I do know what you're going through but I just want you to know that your dad will always be with you, no matter what you're going through in life okay?" He looked me into the eyes as he assured me. I nodded and he pulled me into a hug before leaving.