If This Is Love 2

Part 53

It's crazy how one person can turn your entire life upside down, before I met Arnav I was a different person and now after him, I am a different person.

Until today, I had no idea that a person could have been this important for me apart from my friends, yes my friends were so important, but Arnav was more important than them and I had no idea how that even happened.

Telling Arnav to leave me alone was the hardest thing to do, but I had to do it, for myself. I heard a knock at the door of my room and Zion walked in, he sat opposite me silently, I just looked at him sad before wrapping my arms around him, hugging him tight and breaking down.

You see this? This is what I was talking about, there was a time when I needed to cry I'd go at the echo point sit alone and do it, now I had become so weak, I was here crying in front of my best friend.

"You know you could end this misery Khushi? All you have to do is forgive Arnav. I mean yes I know he did a wrong thing and he has done a lot of terrible things, but he apologized for it, he felt sorry for it and he also does love you, and I'm sure he would never do anything like this again." He said.

"And why should I forgive him Zion? Because I'm sad? Because it's hurting me? or because everyone thinks that I am a girl so I'll always need a guy with me because look at me, we all know I'm never going to be able to trust anyone again so maybe I'll end up single in my life." I looked at him with disappointment, he was supposed to know me better than anyone else.

"Khushi I get it you are hurt, and all I want for you is happiness. It's a fact, it's not even about a guy or a girl, it's about us as humans, we need company, we need someone we can share everything with."

"Maybe, but I have my friends for that."

"They aren't always going to be there Khushi, one day this college life will be over, everyone will start a new life, get married, move away, grow old, will you really want to grow old alone?"

"Yes. I don't mind it Zion. I'm not going to walk over my own self-respect and forgive him for what he did to me. marriage isn't a must, there are a lot of unmarried people out there who are happy, I'll be one of them and I'll be proud of it knowing that I dint let my self-respect lose."

"What about your love Khushi?"

"How do you expect me to continue loving a person that I can no more trust Zion? I mean let's take it for an instance, I decide to forgive Arnav then what next? What about my broken trust, nothing would ever join it back Zion, nothing. So yes, I can forgive Arnav someday, but I still can't be with him and that is my final decision.

I don't care what anyone has to say, I don't care if people call me heartless, or think that as a girl I'm always supposed to forgive everyone that does me wrong. Being a girl doesn't mean letting people walk over me every now and then, because if that's the definition of a girl, I don't want to be that girl."

Zion looked at me disappointedly, he knew there was no way he could convince me of this, but as my best friend, he shouldn't even try to convince me for this.

Why is it okay when a man decides not to forgive a woman but it's a big deal when a woman decides not to forgive a man? Why is there such a difference yet?

I thought we were progressing towards equality where everything had to be equal for each gender then why is forgiveness always expected from women?

No! I wasn't going to do that if that's what everyone expected me to do, I preferred staying alone my entire life than getting back with the guy who had continuously mistreated me, whom I loved but no more trusted.