If This Is Love 2

Part 36

I stood there silently staring at him wondering what to do, I had always been the kind of a person who dint tolerate any kind of shit in her life, but since Arnav came into my life, I had tolerated a lot of his dramas only because there was some stupid way I was attracted to him which clearly made no sense but I was.

Now that he had confessed his love for me, I was stuck between choosing myself and choosing him, I dint love him yet, I dint feel anything like love for him yet, all I knew was that I liked his company, I liked being with him and I liked the way he made me feel but I was sure if it was love yet.

So if I walked away right now it wasn't going to hurt much, but if I stayed and he hurt me once again it might break me, because maybe by then, I might have fallen for him too.

"What are you thinking?" he asked as he looked at me curiously.

"I am just thinking if I can do this Arnav, what you said to me was terrible. You anger was justified, your words weren't." I said.

"I am sorry Khushi, I promise nothing like that will happen again, all this made me realize my feelings for you and now that I know I am in love with you, I don't want to lose you.

Look at me Khushi, I was the guy that hated you, hated your guts, the one that has always been a jerk to you but I am no more that guy, being in love with you has changed me, you're so important to me, please don't leave me.

I promise I'll make up to you, I promise I won't hurt you like this ever again, even when I am angry I promise I won't say things like this, just one chance Khushi.

I just told you love to me means never giving up and if you aren't ready to forgive me now, I'll keep on trying until you forgive me, I am not going to give up on us.

Just give me once chance and I'll be the person you want me to be, just don't end this, don't end us." He looked at me sadly.

"Arnav, I don't want you to become something else, all I want is for you to respect me, for you to treat me like you love me if that's what you really do." I said.

"I will, I'll make sure never to hurt your self-respect again." He promised.

"Fine, just know that this is the first and the last chance, if anything like this happens again I will walk away and won't come back. If I agree to do this means I am going to completely trust you and I hope you wouldn't break that trust, I hope you wouldn't hurt me like this again.

If there's any conflict between us, you would first talk to me and try to resolve the matter instead of assuming things like you did okay?"

"Okay I will do that." He nodded.

"Fine then, just know this is the first time I'm bending my own rule, for you. Please don't make me regret it ever." I looked at him yet feeling scared.

My mom always kept on telling me that she brought me up to be this girl that dint need a man to do anything for her, but she dint bring me up not to love one. So for the sake of her, I was giving this a chance, for the sake of Arnav's love I was giving this a chance, because I might sound selfish but I was always important to myself, no matter what I came first, but today I was putting him first, even before myself and I really hoped he wasn't going to repeat this because if he did, it was clearly going to break me.