If This Is Love 2

Part 37

"Why dint you come to the university today?" I asked, he looked at me and smiled slightly.

"Just like that I had something to do so I decided I'd meet you here straight. So tell me, what is it that you want to talk to me about." He asked curiously, I just nodded as I took in a deep breath.

Wow, this was difficult than I thought it was going to be, I dint even know how to start. I kept on trying different ways in my mind but nothing seemed to be working.

"Khushi." Arnav shook me.

"Yeah."

"I thought you wanted to say something, why are you silent now? You know you can tell me anything." He said.

"Yeah, I just don't know how to start."

"It's not a proposal, you just want to tell me something so say it."

"Okay, it's about my childhood. I dint even know this thing until I met you and then things changed." I said.

"Okay, that's confusing but I'm all ears."

"Before you no guy had ever tried to be this close to me, I mean there was Zion but he was my friend and I always scared off guy who would try to approach me. And then you came in my life being the jerk you are and things changed.

I hated you but I liked you at the same time, it was so confusing, I was starting to feel things I never felt before and I even wanted to avoid you because I couldn't really scare you off like those other guys but nothing seemed to be working.

And then, we started getting really close, then one day you touched me and it was all great but suddenly some blurry images started to appear in my mind and it wasn't great anymore, it was uncomfortable.

Every time you'd be close to me, it kept happening and I dint know why it was happening to me, so I talked to my mom, asked her questions and she told me that when I was really young, I was sexually abused.

I don't want to go into the details, it's really difficult to even talk about it, but I just wanted you to know, the reason of me being uncomfortable with you touching me isn't because I'm interested in Stefan or some other guy, it's because of what happened in the past.

I can't change it Arnav, but I'm trying to fix it, please be patient with me. I know now that we're together you expect certain things from me, and I've never done this relationship thing before but I want to give this a chance, I want to give love a chance so just be patient, maybe someday I'll get over it." I stop speaking, I looked at the view in front of me silently, Arnav did the same too, he dint say a word so I dint even know what to make out of all this.

I dint know if he was going to understand, or anything, I just wanted to know what was going on in his mind and I couldn't if he sat silently like this.

"Why are you silent? Say something." I said.