Snowboarder Imagines

It Was Nothing (Sven Thorgren/Stale Sandbech) PART 3

So it's been two months.  Two months since everything happened.  Stale and I are still broken up.  It's been weird.  I call him sometimes and he calls me.  I know we shouldn't speak, but it's hard going from lovers to nothing.  I'm getting better though.  I miss Stale a lot, but I can handle it.

What I never expected was how difficult getting over Sven would be.  I told him everything.  I told him about my breakup with Stale and he was comforting, but it wasn't enough.  I needed time to heal from the breakup.  I couldn't just jump into another relationship, especially a relationship with my ex-boyfriend's best friend. He said he understood. He said he would wait for me, but it's been two months and we haven't had any contact.  I think about him everyday, but I never call him. Maybe nothing was meant to happen between us.

"I think this is the last of it."  Stale tells me as he walks through the door with a box in his hand. He usually just leaves the boxes on the doorstep, but we're getting used to being around each other in a strictly friendly way.

"Thanks for bringing it over."  I say politely.  The move out was more complicated than we anticipated.  All of our stuff had gotten mixed together causing us to make several return trips.  After two months I think we finally got everything sorted.

"Hey...I know I shouldn't ask you this, but have you heard from Sven?"  Stale asks me as he prepares to leave. 

"No. Why?"  I ask. Stale has never asked me about Sven since the breakup.

"He hasn't been answering any of my texts or calls this week. I'm kinda getting worried.  I thought maybe he had called you."  Stale tells me. 

"Well, he hasn't called so..." I say. 

"Sorry for asking."   Stale says awkwardly as he opens the front door.  "I'll see you around I guess."

"Bye Stale." 

Later that night I fall asleep on the couch.  I was watching some ridiculous TV show and ended up just crashing at like 8pm.

I hear a loud knocking noise that wakes me from my sleep.  I have no idea what time it is.  I try ignoring the loud sound, but it happens again. 

Ughhh.

I rub my eyes and try to wake myself up. The knocking noise happens again, but now I realize it's coming from the front door.   I slowly walk to the door while still half asleep. I look through peephole and see Sven standing on the other side.

"Sven?"  I say.  It's definitely Sven, but it doesn't look Sven.  His hair is out of control and shooting off in every possible direction.  His blue eyes now seem dark, while his cheeks are burning red. He looks like he hasn't slept in days.

"I've been going insane."  Sven says as he stares at the ground.

"Do you wanna come inside?"  I ask, but he ignores my question.

"I know you needed space after Stale.  I get that.  I tried getting over you, I really did, but in the back of my mind there was always hope that you'd come running to me. But you never called.  I told myself that if you wanted to be with me that would call, but that's not enough I guess because I'm still going crazy. So I need to hear it in person.  I need to hear you say that you don't want to be with me."  Sven says.  He finally looks up at me and I feel weak.  I haven't seen his face in so long.  I hadn't realized how much I missed it.  I've been missing him and I didn't even know it.

"I didn't call because I didn't know what to say.  We can't be together.  I'm not with Stale, but he's still your best friend.  We can't do that to him."  I rant.  I've thought about this a thousand of times. 

"Say you don't want to be with me! Make it easy! Just say it! I'll go away if you just say it!"  Sven says. 

"I want to be with you, Sven! But I can't be with you."  I try explaining.  It's hard to explain how I feel.  I like Sven. Like I really really like him, but I still care about Stale's feelings.  I can't date his best friend.  I already feel shitty enough for kissing Sven two months ago.

"Fuck this!"  Sven shouts.  "Why can't this be easier?"

"I don't know what to say."  I say quietly.  Now I feel like crying. 

"He knows, y/n."  Sven says after a long pause.  "Stale knows how we feel about each other.  You're trying to protect his feelings, but he already knows."

"Sven..." I begin. 

"I've talked to him about it.  He knows everything." Sven tells me.  This must be why Stale asked me about Sven earlier today.  He thinks I'm dating Sven already.

Sven looks at me.  He's waiting for me to respond, but I again I don't know what to say.  I'm not sure how to handle this situation, so I go with my gut.  I throw my arms around Sven and pull him into a kiss.  He's surprised at first, but wastes no time in kissing me back.  I forgot how much I liked kissing Sven.

"What does this mean?"  Sven asks me with our noses still touching. 

"I want to be with you.  We'll figure out the Stale situation because I want to be with you."  I tell him.  I can feel his smile against my lips.  He lifts me up while still kissing me and carries me into the house. I'm not sure how we're going to make this messy situation work, but I know we'll find a way.  All I know is that I'm happy here with Sven.