This isn't the end

Romantic getaway

When we returned home on Sunday evening Julian surprised me. We had already dropped off Barry and now we were parked in front of my house.

»Since you told me about your father I can't stop thinking about it. It hurts me that you had to go through it alone. So I decided to take us on a little weekend getaway together.«

»Oh, Jules! That's amazing! Where are we going, when?« I was extremly excited.

»I'll tell you when you need to pack. It's a surprise. And we're going in two weeks. They had a free spot otherwise we'd be going in two to three months.« he was looking extremly pleased with himself.

»Ugh, fineee. Can't wait.« I took everything from the car, and gave him a kiss before I went inside.

Everything was as usual, Jack was in the back yard, mom was reading and George was doing I don't know what. I was debating with myself whether I should tell her about dad this weekend. I decided not to, beacuse it wasn't much she could do to change what had happened.

I had some homework left to do for english class, so I decided to do that.

*********

These two weeks went by fast. Val still wasn't talking to me that much, but I noticed she got a little more distant than usual. And right before I left school today she told me she has something to tell me. I'd really like to talk to her but in that moment I was in a bit of a hurry because Julian was picking me up in excatly two hours and I had nothing packed yet and I had to take a shower. I told her we'd talk when I come back.

After I was finaly finished I decided to text Patty.

»AAAAAA, it's happening. I think tonight is the night.«

»Oh wow, you sure you're ready? You got that sexy lingerie I helped you pick out right? And you do have CONDOMS??« I laughed.

»Hey??!! Yes, I'm ready. Of course I do ;) do you realy think I want to get pregnant at 18? Are you crazy? Of course I have them. Bye, Julian just came.«

»Lucky you, have fun ;)«

We packed eveything in his car and drove off. I was still  surprised mom let me go. Ever since I'm with him I have a lot more freedom than I had before. Which is enjoyable but still I wish she looked like she cared more. I was still a little anxious because Val looked like she realy needed to talk to me. I felt realy awful leaving her hanging like that but I was in a hurry.

»Hey hon, you okay? You seem distracted.« he put his hand on my thigh.

»Yeah don't worry, it's just Val. She needs to talk to me and I'm quite worried about it.«

»Don't worry, it's probably nothing major otherwise she would probably be more persistent.«

»Yeah, you're right.«

The rest of the ride we were silent. It was comforting, I didn't know what to talk about, beacuse the only things I had on my mind were Val and my dad. I didn't know what was worse.

When we arrived at our destination I was surprised. Julian never mentioned they had a cabin in the woods. And with a pool. Damn.

»Wow. You've never mentioned you have a mansion in the woods.« I was amazed by the size of it. It was huge in Victorian style, like the Lockwood mansion from the vampire diaries. And in the back I could see a glimpse of a pool and a huge yard.

»Well, actualy it isn't mine. It's Max's parents' weekend cabin, bit right now they're in London on some bussines trip so he kindly lent it to us for the weekend.«

»Amazing. I knew they were rich but that rich. Amazing.« I had no words. I still had to take a shower. So when we came inside I asked where the showers were. He pointed me in that direction and let me tell you. This house is huge. I almost got lost. And the bathroom was enormous with neatly folded towels, a big shower and a huge mirror. It took me a couple of minutes to figure out how everything worked. I still couldn't believe where we were. After the shower I had a feeling something will happen tonight so I decided to put on a wine red lacy bra and a matching pair of knickers. I was wondering if I should wear something nice. After all it was a romantic getaway and I was planning on losing my virginity. I settled for a black skirt and a top which makes my eyes pop. I applied a little bit of make up.

After I was done I went downstairs I saw that Julian worked the fire place and the fire was warming up the living room. There were some candles on the table to light the mood. I found him in the kitchen where he was making us dinner. He was actualy a pretty good cook in comparision to me. I only knew how to make pasta and rice.

We ate dinner and then decided to go into the living room. We settled on the couch.

»Thank you for the dinner. That was lovely« I gave him a little kiss.

»Anytime. You know I'd die to see you cook.«

»You'll die if you eat my food. So no.« I laughed.

He leaned in to kiss me. The kissing progressed and he was on top of me. Not wanting for him to take all the credit I turned us over so I was on top. Now i was in control. I took off my shirt revealing my bra. He took of his shirt too. I saw him without his tshirt before but this was different. It was like seeing him for the first time. I immidiately kissed him again not wanting to have any space left between us. I started tracing my kisses down his amazingly bulit torso. I stopped at his jeans.

He stoped me. »Are you sure you want to do it?« 

»Mhm.« I was a little out of breath. He took over. Now he was on top of me. He placed kisses in places I never knew would feel so good. He was gentle and made sure I was fine every step we took. It was amazing.

We feel asleep naked in the living roomin front of the fireplace.

*****

For once I woke up before him.Must have been the anxiety over the talk I have to have with Val. I admired his features for a good couple of minutes. I wanted to soak in how the sun made his skin shine and how his eyelashes fluttered every now and then. I didn't want to forget this moment.

I decided to make us pancakes for breakfast. It was only 8.30 but I couldn't sleep anymore. I took his T-shirt and went into the kitchen. It was about half an hour later that he joined me. I just put the last pancake on the plate when he walked in to the kitchen still a little sleepy.

»Good morning Beautiful.« He yawned. »Do I smell pancakes. I f I knew alll i had to do was sleep with you to make you cook I'd do it months ago.«He hugged me from nehind and placed a kiss on my neck.

»That wasn't nice. And don't flatter them before you've tried them. They could be awful.« I realy hope they turned out fine.

»Well, I'll eat them anyway.« 

******

The second I stepped foot in school on Monday Val crossed my path. That hasn't happened in a long time.

»I need to talk to you.« We were standing in the middle of the halway. I thought we needed some privacy so we sat down In front of the school on one of the benches where I eat my lunch.

»Look. You know I've been distant lately and that's because I don't know if I can handle you being with Julian. I know it isn't the same as it was with me and Felix and you, but I still can't take it anymore. I think i need some time alone away from you and him.« When she put that out of her system she left without waiting to hear my response.

What just happened? Did she just drop that bomb and left. I had no idea what to do.I guess I'll leave her alone then.

That converstaion weighed on me the whole day.