Harry Potter Characters x Reader

Broken Glass

y/n's POV

There I was standing in the middle of Draco's room. He'd been acting different lately and I didn't know what it was and why couldn't he tell me? I thought we were close, I thought we could tell each other everything especially if I was his girlfriend. He should at least tell me he's upset instead of hiding it away and acting like someone he's not, pretending to be a picture and feeling trapped. I didn't want him to feel that but I couldn't understand why he was pushing me away like this. After July he stopped sending letters and gifts to me as he had always done that even though I always told him to stop. But after that It was quiet, nothing from him had been waiting at my window in the morning by his owl which worried me a bit.

And when I got to Hogwarts for my sixth year he just distances himself from me. I tried to talk to him but he pushed me away or just ignored me. Why wouldn't he tell me what was going on? Why was he like this? Where did the boy I used to know go to? He hid somewhere and wasn't coming back which seemed like it would be for a long, long time. I wanted to comfort him I wanted to be there for him but he just wouldn't let me.

Draco's POV

She stood there in front of me, I wondered to myself why is she still here why does she care? I pushed her out and I just went MIA on her why doesn't she give up? It hurt me seeing her, not being able to even look her in the eyes without crying and thinking what if I disappoint her with the choice I made. Choices, I had so many choices but I chose to be a death eater, to make my father proud but was it really worth risking my relationship with y/n? I just wanted to hold her in my arms and let her sleep in them as well but I just couldn't.

I wasn't going to break up with her, If I did I would be broken completely shattered to pieces and I would've probably done something bad. I knew at this moment if she tried to comfort me and help me I would have to push her away I would need her to leave but I also didn't want to do that, I couldn't hurt her in any way because Im hurt myself it just wouldn't be okay and I hate to see her hurt its the one thing I can't handle watching with my own eyes and especially knowing its because of me.

We had stood there in silence looking at each other before she walked up towards me and placed her hand on my cheek. I looked at her hand and away trying to hold in the tears knowing this could be the last time I ever get a touch from her. The last time ill be able to feel safe with her warmness taking over my coldness. "Draco...Please tell me what's going on, your so distance you're scaring me" I could hear the broken pain in her voice and the raspiness to it, It just shattered me...

I took her hand off my face and sighed while looking at her as tears formed in my eyelids and as much as I tried to stop them but failed miserably. Tears streamed down my face as I walked away from her it hurts so much too much. I didn't understand why I chose this, why did I have to be so stupid why didn't I choose her? I love her and she loves me I didn't mean for this to happen but it just did I didn't have a choice, or Id die.

"Draco don't just walk away from me, Im worried, please just tell me what's going on I'll even try to stop it or help you Ill do anything" She walked towards me taking my hand and trying to make a solution out of the problem but she didn't know it was permanent, she didn't know she couldn't do anything at all "then stay away from me".

y/n's POV

I watched him walk over to his cabinet that had three shelves with whiskey and glass cups, I never knew he drank but was this the problem? Did he have a drinking problem I tried to stop him but I stopped myself because It seemed like he was done with me trying to stop him from anything. He took out a bottle and a glass and placed it down on his desk and then started to pour himself a drink. I just watched him not knowing what I could do to help this. Why couldn't I stop this?