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Notebook

Your best friend Draco has seemed to be very distant from you lately and you didn't know if you did something or something happened to him. Whenever you were to go speak to him he'd look at you and walk away, It hurt you not knowing what was going on and if you even tried to talk to him he'd push you away not like it's not happened before.

The only time you would actually get something from him is when you'd check him staring at you always whenever you decided to go down the to Slytherin common room or whenever you had classes together and most classes you did have with him. 

You liked it when he stared at you but you didn't know why he stared at you, even when you caught him he'd keep looking at you making you blush. You've always had a thing for him but you tried to get over a little crush because you didn't want to ruin your friendship but it felt like you did since he was ignoring you... all the time. 

One day you decided that you would go up to talk to him hoping he wouldn't turn his back or just look at you and walk away. You spent your day looking for him but it was hard, you thought he'd stand out with his Plauntum Blonde hair but no luck. You even asked Blaise and Goyle where he was but they had no clue. 

You wanted to give up but it was important to know what was going on and why your best friend just vanished from your life without knowing what you did or whoever. It was now night fall and you still had no luck so you just gave up. As you began to walk to your common room you finally saw Draco and ran up to him and then poked his shoulder.

He turned around and looked at you but then slowly turned back "Seriously Draco? your just going to push me out and ignore me like what the hell did I do" He didn't walk away nor did he turn around to look at you "Just don't okay" He spoke out quietly and you could barely hear what he was saying but heard some of what he said.

"whatever Draco, I litterally spent all day trying to find you because I wanted to know what was going on but if this is going to be like this don't bother anymore because Im not trying to be friends with someone who doesn't seem to care" you walked away leaving him there and not even looking back at him.

Once you got to the Common room you went to your dorm room and just sat there on your bed thinking to yourself 'is this over? is this friendship just gone like that?' thats what you thought to yourself and just kept questioning what you could've done better or what you could've said to him and it really didn't help you out just made you think whatever happened with him was all your fault. 

You tried to sleep but didn't work so you got up from your bed and saw the rest of your roommates passed out. You took your houserobe and put it on then walked down the common room and to the fireplace. You stood there for a while until you moved over to a shelf where you hid a notebook that you wrote stuff in.

It was personal so you knew if you kept it out someone would read it and find a way to make fun of you. As you were trying to get it out you heard footsteps making you panic so you put everything back where it was but there was a lot and the footsteps became closer. Once you sorta hid your notebook and put everything back you felt something touch you.

It startled you not knowing what it was and your reflexes came fast so you turned around quickly and punched whoever or whatever was there. You heard a thud then and realized that you punched Draco right in the nose and you could see blood coming out "bloody hell Draco!" you got on your knees and took a napkin and moved his hand off of his nose and took care of his bloody nose.

You got him up from the ground and sat him down on the couches next to the fire place making you a little warm. You tilted his head and put his hand on the napkin to stop the bleeding and then took your robe off and sat there looking at him "Jesus didn't expect you to punch me" you rolled your eyes and him.

You stood up in front of him and took the napkin from him and then moved his head back down and the blood stopped running out. You cleaned the blood that was still on his nose and then threw out the napkin "well next time say something you creep".

"sorry.. besides what were you doing?" you sighed and sat down again and not to close from him "nothing It's nothing" You felt his hand touch your thigh and moved his hand up and down "it didn't seem like it was nothing" you moved your leg away from him and moved to the other side so you weren't near him.

"why do you care all of a sudden your the one who just left remember?" you looked at him waiting for an answer but he just kept his head down. "like what did I do?" he looked back up at you sighed before taking one of your hands as he moved closer to you "you didn't do anything I just felt angry at myself".

"what why?" You were glad he told you but didn't understand why he was mad at himself it just didn't make sense "It's nothing okay just I didn't want to make you feel like this I am really sorry y/n and I just thought that If I came and told you that you wouldn't hate me" When he said that you felt bad.

You could never hate him like never. You gave him and hug and wrapped your arms around his neck and he wrapped his around your torso and didn't let go "I could never" you whispered softly into his ear making him shiver a little. "thank you..." he soon did let go of you and looking at you making you smile a little.

"But do I get to know what you were actually doing?" you sighed and nodded the got up to go the shelf and get the notebook. The notebook was things you wrote about Draco and if anyone ever knew about it you'd feel ashamed but didn't know why? You came back and sat down and Draco seemed pretty interested on the notebook.

"Why was it hidden?" you held the notebook quite close to you and tighten your grip as he asked you what I was. You didn't want to tell him because you were scared what he would say or do... So instead of saying anything you gave him the notebook and he took it. 

You felt butterflies in your stomach as he flipped through the pages and then stopped on one. He then began to read it out loud.

I can't stop staring at his eyes. Those cold grey eyes always distract me. The way he talks,smiles and looks at me makes me fall for him even more.  just wanting him to be around all the time makes me go crazy but I can't help to think does he feel the same? I wonder what it would be like to kiss him, to kiss his cold soft lips and feel the heat between us. Whenever he hugs me I want it to last it forever, he makes me feel safe and wanted Why can't I tell him? Why can't I tell my best friend how I feel about him...

I don't want to ruin what we have though, it's special what we have. I know so much about him so I get the way he treats other people. He just wants love, but why wont he realize Im trying to give him that. I just want to hold him and kiss him and feel his body on top of mine.

He's never going to want me.

After he was done reading that out loud you felt awful and embarassed. You took the book from him and placed it down on the table and then let out a sigh "who's that about?" you looked up at him in shock, you figured he would know since it was that obvious but you guess not. "are you that oblivious?".

He looked straight into your eyes and his eyes wided when he realized "I had no idea-" he got cut off by you standing up and putting your robe on and then taking the notebook "No idea that I felt that way about you well you know what Draco I do okay?" You walked back to the shelf hiding it since he didn't exactly know where it was.

"No one knows okay I knew that this wasn't a good idea" you kept rambling and rambling as you walked back to him which who was standing up and watching you talk and talk "Ill get it if you don't feel the same way but I mean't everything about it okay?" you looked at him when you finally stopped speaking which drove him crazy.

"I think im going to go to bed now" you walked away until you felt him take your arm and pull you towards him. Once you were standing in front of him he took your face and put his lips against yours and then off "I was so distance from you because I hated that I fell for you and I thought if I did just dissapear from you that feeling would leave".

You were still half shock when he kissed you and shocked when he told you about the reason he actually was Ignoring you. "Really..?" you looked up at him with your hand on your mouth and then taking it off "Of course I wouldn't lie to you" He formed a smile while pushing your hair behind your ear and then once again kissing you but this time you got to kiss back. 

When he finally told you how he felt it was like the whole world stopped and it was just the two of you. Let's just say after that night you felt so happy and didn't stop smiling