Drarry One Shots

Maybe Potter Could (REQUEST)

She's ALIVEEEEEEE
I know, I'm surprised to. 
BuckyBarnes2003, "Can you do my request? Draco gets bullied and threatened all the time and one day Harry finds Draco having a panic attack and decides to protect Draco. Can you do that?" Idk when your birthday is but you turn(ed) 17 this year, so congrats on being a dancing queen/king!
Also, this is just riddled with angst. As someone who has panic attacks, there is nothing romantic or pretty about them. 
(I'm pretty positive the artist is Elentori on Deviant art, if I am reading the mark correctly)

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This was a mistake. 

He shouldn't have come back. He should have stayed at the manor with his mother and kept his mouth shut for the rest of his life. But the Wizengamot had said during his and his mothers joint trial that he could either have his wand snapped, or he could finish his education at Hogwarts and prove himself more than a filthy Death Eater. Draco didn't believe himself worthy of a wand, and would have offered it up to be snapped if his mother hadn't been sobbing next to him. 

She wanted him to be able to show his children the wonder of magic, to be able to be the head of the Malfoy family properly, as was his birthright. Draco disagreed, he couldn't be trusted with anything, clearly. But her quiet sobs, not even able to bring her hands to her face because of chains to her chair, had shook him. The responsibility, the expectation, terrified him, but there was a lot he would do for his mother. 

Draco let his head droop to where it was almost touching the rim of the sink. His heavy breathing and a slow drip of water were all he could here, Myrtle being somewhere in the pipes. This was sickeningly reminiscent of his sixth year, but it was the only place in this school that he knew no one would come unless they were as desperate as him. 

It didn't matter if this bathroom had bad memories attached to it. The entire school did, now. It stunk of his cowardice and mistakes. 

Draco turned, sitting himself on the floor next to the sink, wincing as he went. The other students had been ruthless, particularly the ones he had watched suffer under the Carrows last year. It had been consistent over the past month since his return, and he didn't see it stopping. Why would they? They had endured under the Carrow's torture for months, watching Draco stand to the side and never being punished. Draco should have helped them, should have done something, anything than just stand aside. 

He knew he deserved the sting he could feel, the cuts from slashing hexes and bruises from tripping jinxes, and whatever mild curses they could get away with. Draco wouldn't fight back, anyway. He would barely raise a shield charm on some days. Draco deserved this, knew he did in his core, in the way he could feel that his wand hadn't returned the same after Potter had returned it, in the way the mark on his arm would always be there. 

Draco curled in on himself, rocking slightly, his breaths turning shallow. He was worthless. He didn't deserve redemption, or to live outside of consequences in the Manor where the house elves would take care of him. He deserved to be hurt, to be punished. This was his fault, he could have changed so many things if he had just stopped being a coward and had done something. 

His own breathing became as loud as thunder in his ears. He couldn't hear anything besides his own gasping and the pounding of his heart in his throat. Vaguely he could feel the tears and snot running down his face, but he couldn't do anything about it. He couldn't do anything, shouldn't do anything, should just accept that this was the life that he had, that he should have much worse, that he was lucky to be alive and should just die already-

Something knocked him over, though he didn't know what. His head was still tucked into his legs, the outside world nonexistent. He couldn't hear his breath anymore, could feel his chest stuttering and spasming, not enough air was going to his head and he was going to suffocate and he wouldn't be able to say goodbye to his mom but the world would be so much better without him in it-