Everything We Wanted

-5- ✅

(Billie's POV)
I woke up to Aleah sleeping on top of me. Literally I was like a fuckin bed for her. I didn't mind, she looked cute when she slept. I slightly shook her to wake her up. "Babyyyy," I spoke in a low voice. "Mamas you gotta get up." She groaned and rolled off of me to her side of the bed. I kissed her forehead and decided to let her sleep for a while.

I went downstairs and called Finneas to ask him a few things.

F: Hey Bil, what's up?
B: Did Michael ever get back to you about doing a shorter tour?  I heard Finneas sigh on the phone.
F: The best we can do is 5 months. That's the shortest we can do.
B: Okay great thanks Finn you're the best. I'll see you in a bit.

I heard Leah come down the stairs and she looked a little sad. I immediately went to her and hugged her.

"What's wrong, my love?" I asked

"You weren't there when I woke up. I missed you." She pouted at me and reached her arms out so I could pick her up.

"Baby I love you but I am not picking you up anymore." She pouted more as she whined.

"Pweaaseee babyyyy, just one more time! Pleeeeasssee???" She looked up at me with those big puppy eyes as she pouted. Oh god not that face.

I sighed deeply and she smiled knowing she got her way. She put her arms around my neck as I picked her up by her thighs, her head rested in the crook of my neck. "You are such a big baby, you know that?" She giggled and lifted her head up.

"Yes, but I'm your baby." She smiled as she cupped my face and brought me in for a kiss.

"Yes you are. You hungry mama?" She nodded her head. I went into the kitchen as I sat her on the counter, but she whined and only clung to me tighter. I loved it when she got like this, it was the cutest thing ever. I laughed a little bit as I took her arms and legs off me slowly.

"Mama if you want me to make you something you're gonna have to let go of me for a sec." she huffed and reluctantly let me go, her legs going to swing back and forth. I started making some breakfast for us. I put the food on the table and helped her down. After she was done eating she started to lightly pick at her nails, it looked like she was thinking. I looked at her for a sec as she stared off into space, a dazed and almost somber look on her face.

Dissociation.

"Okay c'mon mama," I took her hands and led us to the couch.

I sat down and pulled her in my lap. I spoke slowly and quietly to her, so I wouldn't startle or overwhelm her.

"Leah baby, I need you to talk to me okay? What's goin on in that head of yours?" She looked at me with this sad and distant look.

"How long are you gonna be gone?" She was so...quiet and feeble. It broke my heart knowing how much this would affect her.

Before she had work it was only school we had to worry about which wasn't that big of a deal. My mom would teach her while we were on tour then she'd come back and do her finals and that was that. Now everything is different.

"5 months, as opposed to 7 or 8." I told her softly. She slightly nodded her head, she put her head on my shoulder and I just sat there and held her. My hands went around her back and rubbed it, soothingly.

"We can talk whenever I get the chance baby, and we can FaceTime every night to help you sleep, I'll even stay on it until we wake up the next day." That seemed to cheer her up a bit.

"Okay, um can we just cuddle for the last couple hours until you have to leave?"

"Of course baby, come here." I layed down on my back and brought her down with me. I hated seeing her like this, it was rare but I hated it. She seemed so...distant. Not physically but mentally. Obviously she was here cuddling me, but where was her mind? Where does her mind take her when she gets like this? So many questions I wanna ask her. But I don't. I just be there for her cause that's all I can really do.

-Time Skip-

"Mama...I have to leave soon baby." I felt her tense up and sigh. We got up and took my bags to her car. "Do you want me to drive baby?" She didn't look like she wanted to move at all, she lightly nodded her head. I cupped her face and kissed her forehead, "Only 5 months baby, we can do this, you can do this."

We got in the car and drove to the airport. The whole time she was just looking out the window, emotionless. I placed my hand on her thigh as she intertwined her fingers with mine.

It was silent. There was nothing either one of us could say that could make this better. It was our first time apart in 5 years. We've never spent more than a month away from each other. This was going to take a toll on both of us. I was worried about myself, but I was even more worried about Aleah. I hope she'll be okay.

"We're here angel," I said to her. My voice barely above a whisper. She nodded and got out of the car. It was very late so not a lot of people were here. We met up with my bodyguard as he took my bags. I took Aleah's hand and pulled her into my side as we walked through the airport. We found Finneas and my parents, all ready to go.

"Could you give us a minute please? I need to talk to Aleah." I asked my parents.

"Of course sweetie, go ahead, we'll get your stuff." My mom said.

Leah looked like she was about to burst into tears. "Hey, It's gonna be fine angel, you and me are gonna be fine." I brought her in for a strong tight hug. I could feel her tense up as she was about to cry, trying to hold in her sobs. "Go ahead mama, it's okay I got you."

She started to sob into my chest as I held her. "I'm gonna miss you so much." She cried.

"I'm gonna miss you too my love." I pulled her away from my chest and wiped her tears. "I love you so fucking much angel, god I don't know what I'm gonna do without you."

I brought her in for a long passionate kiss, laying my forehead on hers. "If you ever miss me and I can't get to you, go to your computer and check your messages. Don't ask just trust me, you'll love it." I whispered gently. She nodded her head and she sniffled.

"I love you Bil."

"I love you too Leah, always and forever?" I stuck my pinky out. She chuckled and linked hers with mine.

"Always and forever." she kissed our intertwined hands and so did I. I have her one last kiss and one last hug before I was peeled away from her.

"Bil, our flight is boarding." Finneas said.

"I have to go angel, what are you gonna do if you miss me and I can't get to you?"

"Go to my computer and check my messages."

"Good girl," I kissed her forehead one last time "I love you mama."

(Aleah's POV)
"I love you baby." And just like that, she was gone. On the plane ready for takeoff. I drove home and went inside our home. It seemed so empty and too quiet. I did as Billie said and went to my computer, I checked my inbox and what I saw made me want to cry even more. It was hundreds of videos and voice messages from her. I clicked on one of the videos.

"Hello mama! I love you! If you're watching this it means I have left for tour and you're sad. So I'm here to tell you that I'm thinking about you cause well..when am I not? Haha, anyway, you're gonna be okay baby, I promise. You can do this. I'll call you when I get off the plane. I love you babygirl *mmmmuah* byeee!"

She always knew how to make me happy, I wanted to listen to her sing as I fell asleep so I clicked on a file named "sleep.vr" and clicked play. It was Billie singing and I could hear the faint strum of her ukulele. I was instantly put at ease by her voice. And I fell asleep wearing one of her hoodies and cuddling her pillow that she sleeps on.

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A/N
ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!! So because I'm feeling good I'm giving y'all this! I'm 16 now bitches!!
Kinda short sorry. Buckle up and it's gonna get kinda sad after this.

Love y'all!
Stay hydrated, stay beautiful, stay safe and wear a mask.

-Hayden❤️