Everything We Wanted

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⚠️TW: Mentions of Self-Harm, Cutting⚠️

(Billie's POV)
I woke up the next day feeling like absolute shit. I went to check my phone, no missed calls from Aleah, no text messages, no voicemails. Nothing.

I didn't have anything planned for today which made it worse, I was left alone with my thoughts and feelings. Which is never a good mix. I wasn't gonna try calling her so I texted her instead.
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Mamas💍💕 Hey baby, um I have an off day today. Please talk to me baby. Please.
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I sighed. At least she saw it. I went to Finns room, I needed advice. I knocked on his door and waited for him to answer.

"Woah what happened to you?" He asked. My hair was a mess, I had bags under my eyes and overall I looked like shit.

"That's exactly what I wanna talk about. Me and Leah had a fight and now she's not talking to me. She won't answer my calls, my texts. I'm scared Finn."

"Okay what happened?" He asked.

"Well I just blew up at her cause she was upset with me again that I wasn't with her because I was on tour which I mean I get but what does she want me to do? It's a part of my job and I love it. I didn't mean to snap at her it all just came out like fucking word vomit. Now she won't talk to me."

"Okay. When did this happen?"

"Yesterday before my first interview. She hasn't answered me since then. I know she's seen my calls and texts she just..won't respond." I felt a tear roll down my check, Finneas pulled me into a hug.

"It's gonna be okay Bil, you've known each other for 6 years. She knows you and you know her, just give her some time. You guys don't really fight otherwise so I know you didn't mean it. She probably doesn't have anything to say to you which is why she's been avoiding you. Just give her space and some time."

"I'm just scared Finn, what if she hurts herself because of me? I dunno what I would do with myself." I told him.

"Well all you can do is hope she doesn't. Try calling her again and if she doesn't answer just give her time." He told me.

"Okay, thanks Finneas."

"Anytime Bil, you guys are gonna be fine." He kisses the top of my head and I left his room.

I did wanted to try and call her again but I was scared she wouldn't even answer. I stared at my phone for a solid 3 minutes debating it.

"Fuck it." I picked up phone and called her one more time.

Ring...
Ring...
Ring...
"Hey Bil, what do you want I'm kinda busy."

"I'm sorry, Aleah I am so so sorry that I snapped at you the way I did. I dunno why I did it but I just got upset and I know that's not really an excuse but it's the only reason that I have. I love you so so much and I hate that I made you cry it literally pains me. I hate that I'm the cause of your pain. I hate myself for what I did. I'm sorry, but please don't ignore me, just talk to me baby.

It was quiet for a second.

"I dunno what you want me to say Billie. I just...I've never heard you take that tone of voice with me, and it just brought back some painful memories."