Broken Promises (F.W x reader)

Fourty three

Y/n POV: ‼️TW‼️

My ears began to ring as I opened my eyes. My bison was blurred, but once it came into focus I realized where I was. I was in a hospital room. Eric and Marry were sitting in two chairs to my left. While Finn was on my right holding my hand that was hooked up to my iv. They all three were asleep, I didn't know what time it was but my room had no lights on, and the window blinds were closed.

I was in a hospital gown and my hair was down. My wrists were both covered in white bandage wrap. My left harm only had a little bit of bandage wrap while my right arm was covered in it. I honestly wanted to cry. Not because I was upset about what I did to myself. No, I wanted to cry because I survived.

I began to sit up and my movement woke Finn up. He jumped up and saw I was awake. Tears filled his already red and puffy eyes. He seamed to be feeling a mix of emotions. Where I only felt disappointed in the fact that I suck at killing my self.

"You tried to leave me right before Christmas." Finn said sobbing. I began to wipe some of his tears away. His crying woke Marry up and she rushed over to me. I thought she was gonna be angry, but instead all she did was wrap her arms around me. She began to have quiet tears fall down her cheeks. She let go of me then looked at me in the eyes.

"Why didn't you tell me?" She asked with concern. I just looked down and out of her stare. She walked over to Eric and shook him awake. She said something that I couldn't hear and he walked out of the room. Marry brought her chair closer to my bed and sat down.

"There Gonna get you help." Marry told me with sad eyes. I didn't know how to tell her I didn't want help, I wanted to die! I just nodded to her. She then got out of her chair and told Finn she was gonna go to the restroom. Once Marry left the room it was just me and Finn. Finn eyed me a lot and I avoided looking at him.

"Y/n?" Finn asked. I turned to him and looked him in the eyes. "Your mother...." he began but I covered his mouth with my finger to shush him.

"I don't care." I told him as I looked to the door and away from Finn.

"Why didn't you tell me you were hurting again?" He questioned breaking the silence. I wanted to lie to him so I wouldn't hurt him, but I decided to be honest.

"Because Finn, I didn't want you to stop me again! I want to die! I want all of this shit to be over!" I yelled out. He looked really hurt and his eyes filled with tears.

"Y/n, you can't leave me! I- I love you! And I would do anything for you!" He told me wiping away tears. At that moment it hit me, I wasn't alone! I had Finn and he cared about me! I then hugged him tightly! My arms were wrapped around his neck while his arms were wrapped around my lower back.

"I love you too." I whispered in his ear. Then we let go of each other and Finn crawled up on my hospital bed. He layer there next to me and I had never felt more alive than I did in this moment!

A/n- I felt this was a good place to stop! I hope you like this book! I love you! -Ry💕