Chasing You (Terrell Clarricoates Fan Fiction)

Chapter 13

I roll over and sigh as I close my eyes to fall asleep. A few moments later I hear the front door open slowly. I first think it's my roommate but it's late, too late. I swear I locked the front door. I get out of bed quickly and walk to stand against a wall that isn't in the line of sight from the doorway. I wait. I here footsteps coming closer.

I'm filled with relief when it's Terrell who walks into my bedroom.

"God you scared me. How did you get in?" I ask. He holds up a key.

"I made it," he says. I'm not bothered by him having a copy.

"I didn't think you'd come," I say as I find a seat on my bed.

"I told you I would," is all he says. He sits next to me on the edge of my bed.

"I've thought about what you said," he says finally and stares at the wall in front of us. I turn to look at him.

"But I have to stay," he says. I look away.

"So where does this put us?" I ask.

"I don't know," he shakes his head.

"I don't want to lose you, but I also don't want you around this," he says.

"Can I ask you a question?" I say quickly. He turns his head to make eye contact and nods. I look away.

"How many people have you killed?" I ask. It's silent so I turn my head and look at him. He's examining me.

"It's not something I keep count of," he answers cautiously.

"So it's more than a couple?" I ask.

"I guess," He says.

"Do you kill good people? I mean like what was your reason for killing those people?" I ask.

"I didn't really know anything about the people I killed. They did a horrible thing and I killed them. They could've been good people who just made a big mistake, but I don't know," he says honestly. It's silent for a long time.

"Was it easy?" I ask. I hear him take a breath in. He hesitates. He's worried about my reaction.

"It wasn't difficult," he answers. How can I stomach an answer like that? It was easy for him to take someone's life?

"Do you regret killing Daniel?" I ask. He lets out his breath.

"I regret shooting him in front of you. He did horrible things to you and I'd be lying if I said I regretted killing him," he says. I don't know what to say. I stay silent.

"I'm sorry, Caroline," he says finally. I look over at him.

"I'm just trying to understand," I say and look down.

"Now that you know who I really am, do you still want me around?" He questions.

"You've done more good than bad, Terrell. I can't stand not being near you," I mumble.

"God I sound pathetic," I laugh with no humor. I shake my head. It's embarrassing to be completely lost without someone.

"I need you, Terrell," I whisper softly. He takes my hand and laces his fingers in mine.

"Then I'm not going anywhere," he says. I meet his gaze and his eyes are sincere. His hand finds my cheek and brings me closer. He lets tension build before he presses his lips on mine. A feeling I have missed so much. He pushes me back on the bed and hovers over me. His lips move to my neck and I groan softly. I find the hem of his shirt and pull it up. His lips detach from my skin to pull the shirt off. His lips immediately land on mine again. He lifts up my shirt and I sit up slightly so he can pull it off. My chest is completely bare with his. He trails down my body and slides my bottoms down my legs. He takes his off before climbing back on top of me.

His tongue grazes the skin on my neck. I wrap my arms around his torso and pull him closer before I wrap my legs around his waist.

"I love you," his hot breathe hits my neck as he speaks.

"I love you," I say back softly. I do truly love this man. If he only he knew how much.