Chasing You (Terrell Clarricoates Fan Fiction)

Chapter 26

I pace the bedroom as I wait for the alarm to go off on my phone. The box says to wait five minutes for clear results. Five minutes? That's way to long when you're counting every second. My heart pounds as I watch the clock. Why does this take so long?

It's been three days since Derek was killed. My bruising is better, not as painful. Terrell's been at the mafia almost full time as he's trying to sort everything out. Derek was his consigliere which is why he knew so much information. Now that Derek's gone, Terrell has to do everything by himself. He hasn't decided whether or not he wants to find a new consigliere or maybe even an underboss.

I've been nauseous ever since that night. I was late but that's pretty normal for me so I can't rely on that factor too much. I decided it was in my best interest to take a pregnancy test.

My phone buzzes and I shut it off before rushing into the bathroom to see. I go to grab the stick but I hesitate. What am I going to do if it's positive? I was just complaining about five minutes and now I'm hesitating. I take a deep breath as I flip the stick right side up and my stomach drops. It's positive. We've never talked about kids before. This is bad, really bad. I can't do this. I can't have a baby. All I can think about is what Terrell's reaction will be.

I decide to drive downtown and see Terrell. When I arrive they let me in without hesitation.

"He's in a mood today," Handsy warns me at the bottom of the stair case.

"What happened?" I question as I know Terrell won't tell me for himself.

"The drug trade this morning didn't go as planned," he says. I nod my head. Now is probably a bad time for this but I'm already here. I walk up the steps and walk into his office area. He slams his phone down in anger as I walk into the room.

"Hey," I mumble. He looks up his face softens a little.

"Thank god you're here," he says. He stands and walks towards me. He reaches behind me and shuts the door before locking it. He grabs me forcefully and presses his lips on mine.

"I need a distraction," he mumbles. He pushes me back against the wall.

"Terrell, wait," I say quickly. He stops.

"I came here because I have to talk to you," I say.

"Can it wait?" He breathes heavily. I shake my head. He nods and steps away from me. He pulls up a chair for me to sit and I do. He sits down seconds later. He waits for me to speak. I have no idea how to start.

"We've never talked about kids," I state.

"What's there to talk about?" He questions. I hate this conversation.

"Do you want kids?" I ask.

"That's a loaded question, Caroline. There's so many factors," he says with a questionable look.

"I'm assuming by this conversation, that you want kids," he states. Do I want kids? I didn't think I did but the thought of Terrell having kids is intriguing.

"No- I mean I don't know," I sigh in frustration.

"Caroline what is this about?" He asks as he leans forward and rests his elbows on his knees. This is it. I have to say the words.

"I think I'm pregnant. I mean I took a test and it was positive, but nothing's for sure until I see a doctor," I ramble. His eyes widen and his mouth drops open a little bit. I wait for his response but he doesn't say anything. He looks down at my stomach and then to the floor. I can't tell what he's thinking.

"What do you want to do?" He asks. Seriously? He's asking me if I want to keep it or have an abortion?

"I wanted to talk to you, to see what you wanted," I mumble.

"I need a second to think," he says. I don't doubt that this is not a good thing to him. He's not a family man, he's a mafia boss.

"I'll see you at home then," I say softly. I stand and walk towards the door.

"Caroline, wait. I'm sorry if this isn't what you wanted to hear I just-"

"It's okay. I'm not mad. I do want to talk about this later though. I just wanted you to know. I can respect the fact that you need to think," I say with a half ass smile before I leave.

The drive home is silent. No music plays as my mind races. I don't know how this is going to end. There's so many endings to this that are filling my head. I can lose Terrell and gain a baby, I can lose the baby and have Terrell, I can even have both. Or the scary thought that I lose both.