It was hard not to think about the situation I am in right now. Kaharap ang pamilya ng taong wala akong balak ipagpatuloy ang natitira kong buhay kasama siya. I have no escape and I can't think of any other way.
My mother planned this. Arranging my marriage to someone I don't like. My life sucks. Parang wala akong karapatang mamuhay ng may kapayapaan at mahalin ang taong gusto kong mahalin.
She's contradicting me as always when it comes to that. Hindi ko magawang ngumiti ng maayos habang kaharap iyong babae.
I never listened to their talks. Umaakto lamang akong nakikinig pero iyong isip ay hindi doon nakatuon. My father agreed because he doesn't want to have a fight with my mother.
Mas gugustuhin ko pang taga Galleria ang mapapangasawa ko kaysa sa babaeng kaharap ko ngayon. No matter how beautiful she is, she won't reach my standards.
"Hijo, why don't you spend some time with Trixzie? For sure, mas lalo ninyong makikilala ang isa't isa," I blinked a few times when mom's hands gave me a grip. Napansin niya sigurong hindi ako nakikinig kaya't nagawa iyon.
I cleared my throat and ran my fingers on my hair. Sinubukan kong ngumiti upang kahit papaano ay hindi ako mapahiya.
"Good idea. I can do that if I have my free time. Masyadong busy lang sa Galleria kaya hindi ako makapag-entertain ng kung sino," I reasoned out. Ramdam ko ang paghigpit ng kamay sa akin ni Mama pero hindi ko iyon binigyang pansin.
Dahil iyon naman ang totoo. I have no time for entertaining girls. Mas gusto ko pang makihalubilo sa mga taga Galleria. They are the people I wanted to spend my time with.
"You can visit Felix anytime, Trixzie. For sure, mabibigyan ka naman ng oras ng anak ko," my mom's soft voice said. I continued smiling and never said anything after that.
That won't ever happen. Hindi mangyayari ang isang bagay na hindi ko gusto.
Hanggang sa pag-uwi ng bahay ay hindi ako tinantanan ng nanay ko. She keeps on saying anything but I didn't bothered to listen to it carefully.
"What are you trying to show the Mendoza family huh, Felix? Ni hindi mo man lang nagawang magsalita doon kanina?" I loosened my long sleeve. Hanggang sa pagpasok ng kwarto ay hindi natigil ang pagbubunganga sa akin ni Mama.
She likes doing that to me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi man lang ito nagsasawang gawin iyon sa akin.
"I already told you that I am not fan of arrange marriage. Bakit kailangang ipakasal ako?"
"The Mendozas are highly profiled family! I am sure you like girls with that—" inis akong nagbuntong hininga saka sinarado ang pinto.
I have no time to argue with her for now. Gusto kong magpahinga at hindi na lang isiping nangyari ang gabing ito.
Sa totoo lang ay noon pa man ako pinapareha ni Mama sa babaeng iyon. Of course, I tried to refuse but she insisted that my feelings will grow for her.
Ngunit , nagtagal lang yata ng ilang taon, ni hindi man lang ako nakaramdam ng kahit na anong pagkagusto kay Trixzie.
She's beautiful but I can't like her. Kung tutuusin ay parang nasa kanya na ang lahat pero hindi man lang ako nabighani ng kahit na anong yaman niya.
I can find someone for me. Maraming babae at hindi ko alam kung anong minamadali ni Mama na ipakasal ako sa iba.
I am not old to let her match make me with someone. Iyong mga nirereto naman niya sa akin, hindi ko nagugustuhan. She likes girls who's rich for me. Alam ko namang kaya kong itaguyod ang sarili kong pamilya kahit hindi naman mayaman ang mapangasawa ko sa huli.
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The Night When He Changed (Valdemora Series #4)
Ficción GeneralElaura Zaeia Corpuz, the girl who liked Felix Cedrick Valdemora, one of the owner of a sugarcane plantation in Galleria de Asuncion for years. She works for him and values the loyalty when it comes to work. To have such a greater relationship with h...
