Ofa Atu - I Love You

Chapter 21

Chapter 21

Tasi POV

Holy Mother of God … did I hear her correctly?

I look away from Ofa’s stare as she sits on my lap waiting for my answer.

“babe, I was going to tell you as soon as the time was right and besides she is being taken care of so I don’t have anything to worry about” I say not even sure if I was trying to convince her or myself.

Ofa removes my hands from her waist and then removes herself off of my lap.

I try to hold on to her but she breaks free and she gets off the bed and my frustration is growing.  This is not how I had pictured this to come out.  I don’t know how Ofa found out but theres no turning back now.

“nothing to worry about? You have a daughter and you say its nothing to worry about … so that’s why it was so much easier to not tell me cos you didn’t have to worry about it?” Ofa replies with so much anger

Fuck! She’s fucking twisting my words

“no baby that’s not what I meant.  I’ve wanted to tell you so many times but I didn’t know how you would react to it” Tasi says as he gets off the bed and walks towards me

“No! that’s not good enough” as I back peddle towards the door. “don’t try and blame your secrecy on my reaction.  I knew you had a past but did I care? I still married you and I accepted it all.  But to keep the fact that you have a child really disappoints me” I say with tears now flowing down my cheeks

Tasi tries to pull me into a hug but I pull away more.

“I’m sorry Ofa, I know saying sorry is not gonna change anything but you have to believe I am sorry.  Yes I know I should have told you and I’m not blaming you, this is all on me.  If you want I will explain it all to you” Tasi says looking at me with worried eyes.

We stayed up til 4am as Tasi had explained how his daughter Deisha came into this world.  As much as I didn’t want to hear it but it felt like I needed to know especially now that I am pregnant.  Although Deisha is not mine but my unborn child does need to know he or she has an older sister. 

Tasi kept on apologising every time I went quiet but hearing him talk about Losa got me kinda jealous but the funny thing is, I’m not a jealous kind of person.  Its an odd feeling but something in the way he talks about her just didn’t sit well with me but I made sure to keep my mouth shut.  Maybe there is a deeper reason why he didn’t tell me about his daughter. 

Before we could get some sleep we vowed never to hide anything and to always let one another know how we were feeling no matter how harsh it is. 

Although our talk is no where near finished but when we wake up I plan to take my husband to breakfast and discuss everything else we haven’t discussed yet.