Both of their eyes are closed

part 27

Hope's p.o.v.

It has been mere minutes since Ashton left the room, but with fear coursing through your veins and pain pulsing through your body, minutes can easily turn to hours. My mind is muddled and my vision, blurry. I hear the door open and let out another cry, not in pain this time, but in relief. My eyes are full of tears and I feel a rough hand wrap around mine.

"Ashton," I breathe out abruptly. I don't hear an answer so I squeeze his hand tightly.

"No baby, I'm here. I'm awake and I'm here, it's me."

I open my eyes and try to blink away the tears clouding the scene beside my bed. All I can make out are the teal scrubs on everyone in the room, but I know that Luke is beside me. In between my cries of pain I let out a good long sob. One sob, of the most pure happiness I have ever felt.

....

Perrie-Jane is her name

Emerson is his

They are the two most beautiful things I have every laid eyes on.

....

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Perrie and Emerson..."

"So you're five now, how does it feel to be a man?" Luke says roughing up Emerson's dark blond hair.

Perrie-Jane sits quietly coloring another picture. We've got an entire wall dedicated to her drawings, it's nearly filled up.

They both have been growing into kind, unique little children and I could never be more proud of anything. I look back at the pain and chaos that happened just before they came into this world. I will never ever forget how hard it was to stay calm and focus on the children, but I did it and I am so thankful for that.

I'm thankful for my boys too, I know that without them I most likely wouldn't have made it through that hell and come out sane.

Michael always had a way of putting light in a dark moment.

Calum was my rock, keeping me stable in the chaotic waves.

And Ashton was always capable of saying some of the wisest things in the most unexpected ways.

Looking back on that time I often feel pain, but I also feel love. All the love in the world keeping us going. I will one day tell my kids the stories of their father and beloved uncles when they're old enough.

"Are you okay?" Luke asks me. I look at him and notice the tears residing in my own eyes.

I take a moment, smile at him... "Yes, I'm just happy."

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