Please, Love Me Forever (JENLISA)

Chapter 14

As we go back home. It's almost night time. We ate our delicious dinner and I take a bath again. And proceed to the bedroom. I can't sleep my insomnia are going through inside me again. I wonder if they're still awake or they're already in their deep sleep now.

I slowly walked through out the door. I need to do it quietly incase that they're already asleep so I will not disturb them.

When I go to the terrace. I saw Lisa sitting there again.

"You actually do this often right?" I asked her. She will not know that I am behind her not until I spoke.

"Yes. How about you? Why are you still up this late?"

"I'm just thinking of something."

"Is it really something, Jennie?"

Gosh, just by her calling me with my first name made my heart even flatter even more.

"W-What do you mean?" I asked her confusingly.

"Is it really something? Or is it someone?"

I sigh as she asked the last question.

"I don't know. But that person makes me bounce between exhilaration, euphoria, increased energy, sleeplessness, loss of appetite, trembling, a racing heart and accelerated breathing, as well as anxiety, and panic." I catched my breath when I told her all of that like flash and without breathing.

"Gotcha! I knew it. You like someone right?" She asked.

Why does she looks so sad? Did I do someone wrong that made her like that? Uh, this girl is really driving me crazy.

"Nevermind that. I'm not yet sure with my feelings."

I have a lot of question that I cannot answer yet.

Do I really like her? Or am I just lonely? Do I like her only as a friend? Why am I really questioning this? Are my feelings not strong enough? Why?

These days, many people “settle” into relationships that are not really good for them because they’re scared of being lonely. I know some people who are exactly like that.

Many people say that if you feel like you’ve been talking for a while but that find you don’t really know that someone well, there might be a reason why. That might be you are just only attracted to that someone's looks.

I don't know. That's just a bonus for me. She's beautiful and cute at the same time. That's just a bonus. What really matters is someone that can make me laugh. Someone who tend to value appreciation of my humor over a mate who is constantly cracking jokes. And above all of that, she's a good listener.

That's what I like the most. A good listener.

I suddenly remembered my first night in here. I can't sleep that time too. And with that I can able to share my problem with someone. That someone is Lisa. Who listened to my problems.

"What's in your mind?" Lisa asked me.

"Oh, nothing. I just remembred my first night here where you found me sitting at the exact place when I am sitting right now." I chuckled as I remembered that again.

"Did you ever hate me for meeting me in your life?"

"No. You know I can't hate you. I am grateful for meeting you." I assuredly gave her a gummy smile.

I hugged her like she's the softest living teddy bear in the whole wide universe. She gasped because of my action. But I can't help it. I just really need a hug from her. So I tightened the hug even more. She doesn't have anything to do. She just hugged me back.

We stayed like that for some minutes. And I can feel my tiredness now. Finally, I can sleep now. Before I closed my eyes. My mouth opened like it wants to say something.

"I like you, Lisa."

That's my last word before I fell asleep.