I Need You

44. We make her happy

Emily's POV:

Damon came to pick me up in the morning. I am happy that he is smiling today. Seeing him smile is one thing I would love. He sits beside Ethan and plays with him. And I find Ethan being happy around him and Mia. 

"Shall we ?" I ask from my place holding the keys in my hand. He nods and gets up from the couch and hands Ethan to my mom. I kiss Ethan's forehead before leaving. We made a decision last night to meet the therapist. Mostly for Mia. She needs to speak out. She needs to get her emotions out. I haven't seen her cry or smile since the day he died. And I am getting worried about her.

Damon places his hand on mine and brings me out of my thoughts. He gives me an assuring smile and I smile back. He knows me well. He parks the car in the parking lot and comes to my side to open the door for me. He held his hand out and I take it. We told Kelly, our therapist that we would meet her at her place rather than her work place. It would effect Mia in a bad way if someone finds that she is seeing a therapist.

Kelly greets us with a warm hug and welcomes us in. "I don't think you both need my help" she says looking at our intertwined hands. I try to pull my hand back, but he holds it tight. I just give Kelly a shy smile and she winks at me.

Kelly attends the door when the door bell rang only to meet my emotionless baby girl. Kelly hugs her and she returns an awkward smile and hugs her hesitantly. Kelly brings her inside and Mia settles down in the couch before us. She looks at mine and Damon's hands and she smiles at that. But that isn't the one she gives everytime.

If the thought of me and Damon together can make her happy, I can do that for her. But I have to speak to Damon about this. I have to know how he is going to feel about this. When I am so deep in my thoughts, he squeezes my hand and motions me to follow him.

I get up from the couch and follow him to the balcony. We both stand in the balcony looking at Mia through the glass dorr. This isn't her composure. This isn't her. She became hard and cold. Nothing effects her now. She became a fearless and emotionless girl these days.She sits with both her legs on the table before her and looks at her phone. "She- she loves the thought of us being together" Damon stutters beside me pulling back to reality. I know that. I just look at him. He looks down at the floor not meeting my eyes. I pull his chin up to meet his eyes. His emotions are flickering and I can see tears in his eyes.

I rub the tears falling onto his cheek and squeeze his shoulder. "It's okay Damon. She will be fine. Don't worry" I say rubbing his arm. He holds my other hand with his and kisses my knuckles. Is he doing this for her to be happy? Or for him to be happy? Or for us to be happy?I couldn't let anyone into my life after Aiden. But with Damon around I feel comfortable, loved and happy. He surely makes me happy. But I doubt it with him. He doesn't feel that way towards me and it would be selfish to ask him to stay with me. I even have Ethan now.

"I would love to have you and Ethan with me for the rest of my life" he says looking into my eyes and it's now my turn to look away. Did he mean it "I am serious" he says pulling my face to him as if he could read my mind.

He places his lips on mine. The kiss is slow and passionate. His lips are so soft like feather and I am falling to him. I don't know if I am going to regret this later, but I love this moment. He makes me feel weak in my knees. I may fall down to the floor now. But he holds my waist and pulls me closer to him. We both are breathless by the time we break apart.

A smile appears on his face and I can feel my cheeks turning red. He cups my face and kisses my forehead. He knows my answer so he didn't wait for it. We both go inside and sit in the couch. I don't think Mia saw us. She is still into her phone, but Kelly sends us a wink from the kitchen. And I give her my best smile.

"So how are you feeling Mia?" Kelly asks taking Mia's hand into hers. I and Damon sit across from them observing Mia. Her face doesn't show any emotion. "I am good" she says keeping her phone on the table.

"So how are you dealing with the things" Kelly asks and Mia bends her head to one side and looks at me. "Like Em" she says. We all know what she meant.

"She has Ethan" Kelly says, trying to make up more conversation with Mia. "Yeah Aiden left her with Ethan and Aaron left Pixie for me" she says looking at the door. Pixie is their memory. But she left it with me.

"And she has Damon now" she says and I blush. Damon scoffs beside me. Mia looks at us both and gives us a half smile. "I am happy for that though" she says in a different tone. May be her way of feeling excited.

"Then show your happiness" Kelly says. I think she made a wrong move. The emotion on Mia's face changes immediately. Her eyes are red and fierce. But nothing comes out after that. She pulls her gun out and shoots the flower pot on the kitchen counter. I and Damon flinch, but Kelly doesn't move even an inch.

"This is my way of showing my happiness, my anger, my depression and every other fucking emotion." she says looking at us. "I want to smile but the smile doesn't come out. I want to cry but the tears don't come out because I promised him that I won't cry" she says looking down. We know this is getting hard on her to hold her emotions. But she got us to open up. 

"This is my fucking way of showing my emotions" she says shooting the glass. I am getting more worried now. I was about to get up from the couch to pull the gun away from her. But Damon soothes my hand and holds me near to him. Kelly is not affected with Mia's actions. She just gives her a smile and caresses Mia's hand. Mia seems to calm down now. She puts her gun back into her pocket and she leaves the room.

"She's gonna be fine" Kelly says to us and we both thank her before leaving. Damon drives me to Mia's place but she isn't there. So he drives me home. He kisses my forehead before I get down from the car . "Take care" he says before driving back.

I NEED SOME TIME. I find this note on the freezer. I know that Mia left this. I look around the house to see if Pixie is here, but it isn't. I guess she took it with her. I sigh in relief.