fairy lights | Amasai

twenty four. | despair

(<3 did you guys miss me? Prepare for another sad chapter!)

I sat on my bed, reading through old text messages that Rantaro sent me.

Rantaro 💚 :
Aww, good night Shuichi. I'll see you on Monday. :)
May 23rd, 1:34 AM.

It's been 5 months. It feels like Rantaro has moved on already, he hasn't acknowledged me, no text messages, no voice mails, nothing. Just utter silence from him. Kokichi also moved, but he somehow got my phone number and said to ignore Rantaro still.

I wanted to type no, but apparently he knows if I'm talking to Rantaro, which.. is kind of creepy, honestly.

Here I am, sitting on my bed, in my bedroom. I remembered all the fun times we had, days where we spent studying, days where we talked to each other, video calling, calling each other when we felt lonely, and texting each other. It just all felt like old memories when it was just months ago. It wasn't even years ago, yet it felt like it.

Do I keep this up or do I not?

I feel so conflicted. What the hell is a short guy named Kokichi who likes grape juice going to do?! Why am I even so afraid?! Is it because I'm too scared to lose my cru-

Crush.. no, he's not my crush.

He's my soulmate.

Rantaro is my soulmate, he has to be.

I sigh, returning back to my home screen on my phone, letting the screen darken until it turns off.

I stare out my window, watching cars pass by, suddenly feeling lonely. It felt so weird not talking to Rantaro anymore, does he still count as my soulmate? Is changing soulmates even a thing? I don't want to lose him, but I'm being such a stupid scaredy cat for no reason.

My phone starts ringing, I was hoping it was Rantaro, but what are the chances? I check who called, it was Kaede. I answer, putting the phone to my ear, "..Hello?" I said.

"Hey, Shuichi! You want to hang out tomorrow? Like the old days? It's fine if you want to do it some other day!" Kaede said. "Oh, sure. I'm free tomorrow," I say. "Great! I can come over to your house and we can hang out!" Kaede said. "Yea, that sounds nice," I say. "Great! See ya, Shuichi!" Kaede said before hanging up.

Call ended
3:45

I stare at my phone as the screen disappears, returning to my lock screen. I hesitated on tapping on the twitter icon, but I tapped it anyway. I was bombarded with new tweets, guess this is what happens when you don't check twitter often.

As I was scrolling on twitter, Rantaro's tweet came up.

@avocadoenthusiast
| Take some pictures of Kiwi ^w^
| [Photos of Rantaro's cat, Kiwi sleeping and playing]
| 113 likes | 10 retweets
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| @gamergirlbathwater
| wtftfttf WHY IS YOUR CAT SO CUTE OMGJGJG I WANT HER ;((
| 1 like | 0 retweets
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| @avocadoenthusiast
| I just got kiwi a few weeks ago, maybe if we met up I could let you pet her lol
| 2 likes | 0 retweets
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| @gamergirlbathwater
| bet DMs rn