fairy lights | Amasai

eighteen. | watching the sunset

(Been listening to sofia slowed and- yea, I suggest listening to it on loop since I got my inspiration from it lol, it served great background music for this)

It was Saturday. The day I would hang out with Rantaro, again.

I've been pacing around my room for the past 5 minutes, trying to get myself to calm down. It's just like all the other times we've hung out, why am I so scared though?! I thought, angry at myself. It's just the usual, friends hanging out and talking, nothing wrong! I thought to myself, walking into the bathroom, flicking the lights on and looking at myself in the mirror.

I groaned, looking at my hair. Maybe I could try putting clips in it? Maybe I could just brush it like a normal person? You know what, those two options don't sound bad. I open the drawer, grabbing out a hair brush and brushing my hair, opening another dresser where a lot of random and unused stuff are in there. There's random dirty makeup brushes, hair ties, and clips.

I grab all of them, putting it on the counter, discarding the ones I don't want back into the drawer. I decided to stick with two, pretty plain colors though. A blue and black one, they're just really nice together, ok?

I grab the clips, turning the lights off and walking out of the bathroom, grabbing the outfit I threw on my bed, walking back to the bathroom to change.

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I sat down on the blanket, resting on some of the fluffy pillows while holding one as well. I waited, almost falling asleep but I stayed awake.

"Looks like someone is making themself comfortable, huh?" Someone said, sitting next to me. "..Mhm.." I said, the fluffiness of the pillow making it barely audible for him to hear, earning a small chuckle from him.

"Don't fall asleep on me! I might have to get rid of these pillows if you're going to sleep while I talk," he says jokingly, pretending to be mad. I huffed, hugging the pillow tighter, "If you take these pillows away my life will be disastrous," I said dramatically, Rantaro rolling his eyes while also laughing. I laugh as well, sitting up, still hugging the fluffy pillow.

"Anyways, anything on your mind lately, Shuichi?" Rantaro asked, laying down on the blanket, his head resting on a fluffy pillow. I thought for a moment before speaking, "Well.. maybe some things," I say, Rantaro turning to look at me, laying on his stomach, his hands cupping his own cheeks, grinning, "Well? Are you going to tell me or are you just going to keep it to yourself?" He asks, grinning still.

I rolled my eyes, "Fine."

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Somehow, our conversation turned into truth or dare, and me, being the idiot I am, accidentally chose Dare.

"Nuh uh, Shuichi! You can't change it, you already said dare!" Rantaro said, smiling cheekily. I groaned, "But- That was an accident! I swear! Pleaseee, just let me change to truth," I pleaded, sitting up. Rantaro thought for a moment, before shaking his head and laughing.

I groaned, what have I gotten myself into? I thought, waiting for Rantaro to ask a dare.

But, I didn't actually expect him to ask me that question..

"Shuichi, do you like someone?" Rantaro asks, genuine curiosity.

I blinked for a few seconds, processing what Rantaro just said. Did he- did he just.? Ask?- I thought, until my brain finally worked. My face turned red real quick. Embarrassed, I hid my face with a fluffy pillow, "No! Of course not! No one deserves me! I'm sure he doesn't even lik-"

"He?" Rantaro asked. Oh no.. Did I just- I lower the fluffy pillow, not realizing how close we both are. My face turns even more red, hiding my face behind the same fluffy pillow. Rantaro laughs, "May I ask who he is?" He asks, laughing at how his friend, which was me, getting embarrassed.

I huffed, "I'm not telling."

"Aww, cmon, at least give me hints, Shuichi! I knew you liked someone!" Rantaro said, making puppy dog eyes. I look at Rantaro, still a bit embarrassed, I wish I could tell you it's you.. I thought, bringing the pillow down, "Fine, you only get 3 hints though, so ask carefully!"

I said. Rantaro smiles, "do I know him?" He asks. I thought for a bit, wondering what to say. "Well, yes.. sort of," I said, trying not to be too obvious about it. "Sort of.." He repeated quietly, thinking how he should ask the next question.

"What does he look like?" Rantaro asks. I cringed a bit, thinking on how to describe Rantaro, without him thinking it's literally himself. "Well, ahh.. umm, he's um.." I stutter, frantically trying to think up of how to describe him, without giving it away, "Umm.. can I.. not answer that question?" I say, laughing nervously. Rantaro looked at me, suspicious, "Hmm.. that's very suspicious, Shuichi," Rantaro asked. I nervously laugh a bit, "W-What do you mean? Just a-ask another question," I said, stuttering a bit.

Rantaro laughs a bit, "Okay okay, well, good thing I prepared another question, I had a feeling you wouldn't answer," he said, smiling. Wouldn't answer? What does he mean? I thought, nodding for him to carry on. "Do your friends know him?" He asks, I nodded. "Hmm.." He said, thinking about the last question since I ignored the appearance one.

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"Hmm, this is going to be hard trying to figure out who it is without their appearance," Rantaro commented, laying down. Please.. don't solve it, it's going to be so embarrassing.. I thought, laying down next to Rantaro. It's been at least 2 hours, the sun had already started to set, so we decided to watch the sunset turn to night as we talked about a lot of things, Rantaro didn't bring up about the crush, which, thank god.

It was now night, we said goodbye to each other, but before he could go back home, I hugged him, I don't even remember why, but he laughed, hugging back and ruffling my hair a bit so it's back to a mess. Well, a little bit. I let go, looking into his eyes as he smiles, letting go as well and waving goodbye, walking the other way. I waved goodbye, covering my face in embarrassment as I walked home.

Did I really just hug him? Yes.

Do I know why? Nope.

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I had a sudden burst of motivation soo.. here you go! Take care! <3 - Laffy