Devil's Luscious Temptation [BL][COMPLETED]

Chapter 23

haven

ACE'S POV

I am falling for Lance, no, I love Lance already and I don't want to be broken again to the same person who broke my heart. Sa totoo lang, hindi ko pa rin maiaalis ang pangamba na maiwan ako sa bandang hulihan. I'm scared. I'm scared to offer my whole trust to him; I'm scared that I might love him more than it should. The only thing I could do is to show and tell him how much I love him. Doon din naman ako tutungo, bakit pa papatagalin.

I badly want to dictate life na sa akin lang si Lance, mine alone, pero hindi sa ganiyang paraan nangyayari ang mga bagay-bagay. At kahit gano'n pa man ay 'di ko yata kaya na maging makasarili, no, I don't want to. I believe I deserve affection from him without any force, yes, we were both forced in this marriage, and however things are going smooth now.

Sabi nila, wala sa edad sa kung paano mo masusukat ang tatag at experiences pero parang ayaw kong maniwala. At the age of sixteen, namulat ako na hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay makukuha ko ang mga wants ko. My freedom for example, I thought of life and compared my life to a bird once, free to flutter my wings and travel sa kung saan at paano ko gusto. But as soon as dad and mom pulled the trigger I was shot with all the responsibilities, from there I realized things.

Nasanay rin ako na nasa sakin lahat-lahat simula pagkabata pero things went differently when I was forced to deal with the marriage. With the fear of baka mawala sa akin ang lahat kapag nakasal na, I forced myself to maturity.

Sinabi ko sa sarili ko, Ace, be matured already! Dapat mature ka na dahil ikakasal ka na nga! No more with those childish acts! I can't help but be sad dahil kabaliktaran ang nangyari sa akin. When those things happened, my natural smile vanished. Naging mas mahigpit at mas lumala ang pagka bratinela ko. I would lash out over simple things, and I act aggressively.

I need to clear these thoughts away.

"Hello dad," I just need someone to talk to. Someone' serious and can understand me well. There are a lot of them, pero ang daddy ang gusto ko.

"Oh, princess, what's wrong?"

Dad is sensible and the man I looked up to, he's someone I idolize for his kind heart and mighty personality. I want to be like him, kind and serious.

"Things are fine, dad. I just want to check something. May nasabi lang kasi si Kuya Silver about the contract."

Minsan talaga ay mahihiling mo na lang sana na hindi ka magising sa mga kasinungalingan. Minsan talaga ay mas magandang mabuhay sa kasinungalingan keysa sa katotohanan.

"Contract? What about the contract? Please, princess, promise me not to cancel our plans."

I of course don't want that. Kung sa ako lang, pero sa klase ng relasyon namin ni Lance? I'm not sure on how things will be.

"N-no, dad, I won't of course. I still want to pursue this marriage." I still want to, kahit na alam kung wala man lang label ang relationship namin.

"That's good. Better even. Pasensiya kana, prinsesa ko at naipit ka sa ganitong gulo. Hindi ka ba naman nasasaktan sa sitwasyon ninyo ni Lance?"

"Dad, kaya ko naman pangalagaan ang sarili ko. I'm a Villamayor, you must've forgotten."

"I taught you so well, princess. Proud na proud ang daddy sa'yo."

"About the contract, dad?"

"Yes, yes! About the contract, may problema ba?"

Nahihimigan ko na ang pagkalma ng daddy, siguro dahil sa mga assurances na sinabi ko.

"Wala namang problema, dad. Nasabi kasi ni Kuya na napermahan niyo na ang merging ng mga kompanya,"

"You're right, princess. We are planning to announce it at your 18th Birthday celebration, kasabay na rin ng engagement mo sa mga Zapanta."

Wala na nga talagang atrasan ngayon. Things are set now, kung hindi man ay kaagad naman itong naso-solusyonan ng Tito at Tita pati na rin sina mom and dad.

"Kung... kung maiipit ba ako dad ay pwede akong makawala?"

"Maiipit?! Ace! Are you hiding things to your dad?"

"Hindi naman po sa ganoon, dad. Calm down and baka atakihin ka sa puso niyan." Pinakalma ko siya.

"Kung ganun, ano ang ibig sabihin mo, anak?"

"Kung magkaproblema ba kami ni Lance ay pwede ba kaming makawala sa isa't-isa?"

The call was soon ended ng matapos masagot ng daddy ang mga katanongan ko. One thing's sure, na panatag ako sa sinabi ni Dad.

Bumalik ako sa kwarto namin ni Lance.

We're at Korea right now, his pent house unit in Korea to be specific.

It's past midnight kaya alam kung tulog na si Lance. I instantly smiled when I saw Lance' sleeping state. Kahit tulog ay napaka-hot! One thing about him is, kapag ako ang katabi niya matulog, he always wears his boxer brief. He wants to feel me, my warmth as he hugs me. He's a cuddle baby kaya he loves to spoon me while sleeping.

Akala ko talaga sa kaniya noon ay puro salungat ang mga personalidad namin, but as time passes by, I am seeing his other side, the gentleman na medyo bastos side. I, slowly and in shy motion ay tumabi sa kaniya and covered our bodies with a duvet, ngunit alam kong ang init pa lang ng katawan namin ay sapat na.

Tiningnan ko ang mahimbing niyang postura. "I have always dream of having you close to me, Lance. Masama akong tao, pero napakaswerte ko dahil binigyan ako ng pagkakataon to hold you like this." I kissed his rough hand at nilaro ang mga daliri nito.

"I'm a demon disguised in an angel's face, I disguised myself on a mask; pretended to be happy when truly I wasn't. I don't deserve you, sana alam mo 'yan, pero piliin mo ako ah," Dahil ako pipiliin kita. I will choose you because I love you.

I am changing myself for this guy. Hindi ko namalayan na unti-unti ko na pa lang binabago ang sarili sa lalaking 'to. Bakit ba ako nagkakaganito? I was supposed to hate this guy for breaking my heart.

I remembered the conversation I had with dad earlier, "Ako na lang Lance, please choose me when the time comes. Please, be mine."

I slipped those thoughts away and rather enjoyed the feeling of my head in his chest while he possessively wraps an arm around my body.

My own haven, I will enjoy this while this lasts.