You always leave us behind.
But I don't mind.
Don't you think you are wrong ?
Anyway, I'm glad you give us what we longed.
But..
Sometimes I just wished you could be softer.
It's not like I want anything more than a pillow and a comforter.
You could say it's not right.
But instead you shouted as if I'm someone that gives you a fright.
You always say I should try harder.
And I do but it is always further.
I do get sad.
But I'm a pro at hiding how i feel bad.
Maybe I'm too sensitive?
Maybe I'm too negative ?
But as I became older,
You became harsher.
It feels like nowadays everything is wrong.
A day feels quite long.
I regret everything.
I regret why I don't do that thing.
I regret existing.
I regret eating.
I regret not asking.
It seems like all I did was regretting.
And I seems to forget little things.
Even as simple as not crying.
And be happy by laughing.
30 June
