I used to live poorly.
Everything is very costly.
But I'm happy with all I have.
Even if I don't get my fav,
Nowadays our live has been better.
It's not how it used to be a torture.
But as I'm getting older,
things start getting harsher.
I learned the bitter truth of me.
Schools giving a lot more fee.
I'm always feeling lonely,
even if I have friends around to accompany.
I don't know.
People say you reap what you sow.
But I never did anything wrong.
I was teached to be strong.
And I end up getting blame.
And I get the fame.
for all the things i didnt do.
I regret everything that comes from you.
What more should be kept a secret ?
How much longer can I be quiet ?
You know I'm tired.
Fuck life, I'm becoming retarded.
I complaint but they say it's normal.
Fuck, what's normal when you get the minimal ?
I'm not trying to be so sensitive,
but sis. I'm fucking tired with all of your initiative.
I'm crying but no one even wondering,
why life has been so torturing.
I learned I'm weak,
your 'little harsh' words make me leak.
I'm sad.
everything is never enough as it will fade.
But it's not like I'm not trying ?!
It's YOU that didn't see me giving.
21 July
