I hoped you know,
that it wasn't easy letting go,
All this time I've had it low,
suddenly needed to face all my foe.
You can't bring down my level of concern,
I will keep on being so stern.
Trouble came for free without a fee,
And I know there's no superman to save me.
I'm not awkward,
Nor do I like being so forward.
I felt safe in my own bubble,
But when I go out I've become too feeble.
I'm really lonely,
I'm not the type to be friendly.
Had some close friends,
but they have their best friend waiting to be tend.
I've said it,
I'm not so lit.
People tend to leave,
Since they thought I was the same as a dead leaf.
Used to be worthy,
but now it's simply nothing, specifically empty.
I do loved till my heart breaks,
I do feel my heart aches.
But sometimes I can't helped but wishing,
I'm not that same human being.
Wished to be more fun,
More fit so I also can run.
I wanted to be more alive,
all I did was only to survive.
I really feel I'm not incompetent enough
to be friended with those who can make people laugh.
7 August
19.40 p.m
