January 4, 2012
Dear Louis,
I went outside yesterday. It was cold and I cried when it started snowing. My cheeks still sting. It's so white, so clean. How can anything be so beautiful when you're not here? I love you. My mom smiled when I asked if I could go out. She took my license when you died, she still won't give it back. It's probably a good thing since I don't focus well these days. All I can think of is you.
We go back to school soon. I'm not sure I want to go. We spent so much time there. So many memories. Too many memories. I feel like I'm going to explode some days. I refuse to cry anymore. Crying is weakness and I don't need to be weak unless you're here. I love you.
Lou, I need you back. Just one day. That's all I ask. That's all I need. One day. Twenty four hours. Eighty six thousand and four hundred seconds. All the time I need. Just to say goodbye one last time. I love you, one last time. One last hug.
Remember that one day you spent the night and we decided to sneak out to see Paranormal Activity? When we got home my parents were hiding in my room with masks. We were so scared. I cried and you ended up laughing anyways. I miss that. I miss us. I love you.
Always, Only, Forever Yours,
Mai <3
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Without You
RomanceUNDER EDITING: Mairenn and Louis had been together for a while. Neither of them kept track of the time. Mairenn knew Louis struggled with suicide and guilt over his parents leaving him and his sister when they were young. She loved him and supported...
