Summer (BrightWin)

s u m m e r ; 16

Bright's

We both sleep naked. His head was resting on my arm and he was hugging me. I can't sleep because of what happened. I gaze at Win who's in deep sleep. I stared at his face more, savoring every second because who knows maybe this is the first and the last time things like this will ever happen. I grinned as soon I saw a hickey on his neck. The way he sleeps is adorable and I don't want to miss any second of it that's why I keep an eye on him. I looked at the clock that was hanging into the wall and It's already 3:00 A.M. What if, when I wake up, Win will leave me and I will never see him again? What if when I wake up, he will say goodbye to me? I shook my head because of the What If's my mind was currently thinking. Win was snoring out loud maybe because he was tired. I closed my eyes and let myself drown from sleeping.

The cold vibe of the wind wakes me up. I was all naked and the first thing I noticed; Win wasn't on my side. I immediately stood up from my bed, wore my pants and shirt, and searched for him. I told myself that I will be ready when this day happen but I guess, I'm wrong. I went out and tried to search for him but he wasn't there, I went to the different cottages, hoping I can see him, but I was wrong. There's no Win Metawin in the place. I dropped my shoulder as a disappointment because I don't have any chance to say goodbye to him, at least. I went back to my room and plopped my body into my bed. My body was so heavy and I can feel my tears are forming into my eyes and they were eventually fell, slowly. I was gasping for air as I caught myself crying hard for him. Wishing him to stay, especially in this kind of situation wherein my demons are controlling me, letting myself be destroyed from who? By myself too. I need him. That's all I know and that's what I need. I want him. I want him to call me by my name and with that small thing, everything becomes light and easier for me. I stood up from my bed, starting packing my things up, and ready to leave the resort. Does Win did feel the same way I did? I hope he does. As I fixing my thing, I noticed a letter on the side of my bed. I bet this letter is from Win and without hesitation, I opened it and I am right.

Dearest Bright,

I know you will be quite disappointed once you wake up in the morning. You know the day I saw you sitting under the shade of the acacia tree? I can't help myself but stare at you the whole time even the weather was too hot. Even I left you, and even some features of your body changed, you are still the Bright I knew. I want you to know that I will never leave you no matter what happens. I will stay by your side. I just have to deal with my life in Bangkok and I promise I will see you and stay with you. I'm not good at writing and doing this stuff but at least, I tried. Bright, sorry if I didn't wake you up and say goodbye to you. It will be hard for me to do that and I don't want to cry in front of you. Leaving was just a word but a difficult thing to do but I have no choice. I hope you understand me and promise me that you'll wait for me.

                                                                                                                                                                      -Win

I was smiling while reading the entire letter. My what-ifs are all gone because I felt so assured that Win will come back to me and never leave me. I just have to wait for him to full fill his promise. I should trust him and I hope he's doing good in Bangkok now. I looked into the window and the beam of the sun scattered into the four corners of the room. I smiled at it and release heavy breathing

"Damn, I already miss him," I said while smiling and gazed into the letter he wrote.

Hope you will come back soon, Win. I hope.

*3 months passed*

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@brightvc

08-02-20XX

It's been a month since he's not here. It feels like

I'm in the middle of the winter without wearing any comforter and sweater.

Hi Win? How are you? The Summer just ended and I'm still waiting for you

Uh, My book was currently on its next chapter and anytime now, it will come to its end. How I wish you are here, supporting me. Please look after yourself! Being sick is too hard to deal with especially when you are alone.

Make me proud, see you soon.

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@brightvc

08-05-20xx

I didn't go to the office today but my back was in pain and I can't stand up properly. Maybe because I was sitting the whole day finishing the next chapter of my story. How are you? Your mom went here and I just want to thank you for giving me a new pair of shoes. You see, I don't have time to buy any kinds of stuff for myself because sometimes, I'm lazy. Did your mom tell you that I'm going to Bangkok next month? I can't wait to see you there.

I miss you, Win.

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@brightvc

08-10-20xx

The publishing company wants me to write another novel right after I finish writing summer. What do you think? Should the title be? Winter? Spring? Raining?

How are you? You're not responding to my email lately. Are you busy? Don't forget to look after yourself and eat properly na? I seek for a doctor because my back was still hurting and he told me I should take a rest for a while.

If you ever read this, please reply.

I miss you. I badly do.

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@brightvc

09-03-20xx

Win, I'm scared.

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This chapter might sound confusing but this is not the end of the story. The next updates will be more like a diary (blog) entry of Bright hehe so expect a shorter update but I promise I will update fast... kill me If I don't lololol. Please stay tuned and all I can say is..... prepare for the ending huhu, please.