Summer (BrightWin)

s u m m e r ; 18

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Can I just stay in Pattaya for good? I thought things will be fine right after I leave, but I guess the world is a paradox. Things become harder when I'm ready to leave. I stood up at five in the morning to prepare my things up. I gazed at Bright and I just smiled at him when I see how deep his sleep was. Maybe he's tired of what happened today. I move close to him and just stared at his face for about a minute. How could he look so good even when he is sleeping? His eyes are perfection. I slowly caress his hair and kissing the tip of his nose. I will miss him. He is the main reason why I left Bangkok and why Summer for me is the best season for me, or at least for everyone. He may be selfish sometimes but it's how he shows his love for me. At first, I was very hesitant to talk to him because of what happened in the past but look where are we now and I have to let him now since the season is almost over and I have to go back to Bangkok because I have to deal with my life, teach young students to play instruments.

"I will visit you soon" I whispered and kiss his forehead. I wore my pants and my long sleeves, went to my baggage, and ready to leave. I noticed a paper and a pen near the table and wrote a letter to him. I know, when he wakes up, he will be devastated and he will look for me. But I don't want to get things harder.

Dearest Bright,

I know you will be quite disappointed once you wake up in the morning. You know the day I saw you sitting under the shade of the acacia tree? I can't help myself but stare at you the whole time even the weather was too hot. Even I left you, and even some features of your body changed, you are still the Bright I knew. I want you to know that I will never leave you no matter what happens. I will stay by your side. I just have to deal with my life in Bangkok and I promise I will see you and stay with you. I'm not good at writing and doing this stuff but at least, I tried. Bright, sorry if I didn't wake you up and say goodbye to you. It will be hard for me to do that and I don't want to cry in front of you. Leaving was just a word but a difficult thing to do but I have no choice. I hope you understand me and promise me that you'll wait for me.

I silently sealed it and put it on the table next to our bed. I wore my coat and started at Bright once more before closing the door

"See you soon" I muttered and closed the door even it's hard for me.

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"Hey, do these things and make sure you will submit them on time" Our boss muttered and throw all the paper works in front of me. I scratching my finger as a sign of frustration because what he was doing isn't appropriate and it's against the contract I signed.

"But sir, you have your Secretary why can't you just leave this from her?" I weakly said while looking into the ground. My boss went back to my place and roughly pinched my chicks

"What did you say?" He aggressively asked and that's how I became afraid to answer him. Since I came back to the city, everything was different, everything becomes miserable. I want to cry in front of him but I don't want to lose my job and I have to ease all the shits that are happening to me, happening to my life. At that point, I remember Bright who's always there for me even how unfair life is. Did I regret my decision to come back to Bangkok? I do. I want to run and escape Bangkok again and just stay in Bright's arms but it's impossible. I have no one to carry on, I just have to face the consequences of my choice.

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Sir, I'm a music teacher here, not your assistant," I said with conviction and the next thing that happened was, my boss punched me in my stomach and I kneel on the floor because of what happened. I still hold back my tears.

"And I am the owner of this school. So my rules, my rules." He professed and kicked me in my head. I lay down on the floor and all of my co-teachers were just watching me and no one was willing to help me. At that point, my tears were streaming from my eyes down to my cheeks that are covered by bruises. I hope Bright is here and willing to cover me, to protect me. He will never let anyone do this to me and I'm lucky enough to know that there's at least someone who treasures me, who cares for me, and ready to save me when everything was falling apart. Everything becomes blurry right after I cried and the last thing I remember, the owner of the school kicked me once more.

Replying to @brightvc
reply:

I'm currently reading all the blog you have posted and trust me, I can't help myself but miss you even more. How are you? Don't worry about me here, I am all good (except for the traffic of the city) Don't worry about me and just focus on your novel first okay? If I have time, I will visit you.

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Replying to @brightvc
reply:

Today was tiring as usual and I just want to take a nap but since you posted another, I have to reply to you not because I'm committed but because I want to. Keep safe, Bright. I'm pretty fine here ; )))

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Everything becomes heavy
Why do I have to tell him I'm okay even if I'm not?
Please, save me.
I
Want
To
End
Everything

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