Is It Love?

Chapter Four

Lily's POV

I'm sitting in my car, driving home. I took the long way and even though I get a few extra minutes, it's not enough. I have two blocks till I get home. I started recognizing my surroundings about 3 blocks back.

I hope I can convince her. I really can't handle Arron today, he's not mean- kind of. He just makes me uncomfortable and I feel unsafe, I think the fact I know my mother is the reason he's there is why I hate his presence so much. 

I turn down my street, the oh so familiar houses that surround mine start to come into view. I can see my house a few houses down. I've always felt like when I turn into my driveway it's in slow motion. Maybe it's my brain wishing it could slow down time so I wouldn't have to put myself through my mother's hatred. 

I pull into my driveway, shutting off my car and taking a deep breath. My mother was home, her car was right next to mine. I just want to avoid her yelling. I slowly leave my car. Walking up to my door and grabbing my house key. I open the door and I can feel the energy shift. She was sitting in the living room- was she waiting for me?

You've got to be kidding me. She was.

She was probably mad I wasn't home the time I usually am. 

As soon as she realized I opened the door she stood up, "Where were you? You were supposed to be home 10 minutes ago." 

"I took the long way. I needed a breather." I walk past her but when I feel her cold hand grip my arm I stop. 

"You have plans today. You think today is the day to be late and take a breather?" she sounded angry, I don't understand why being 10 minutes late is so bad. 

I turn to face her, making eye contact, and not backing down. I can't deal with her shit today. "Oh you mean the plans I found out about today not by you, but by the person you set them up with. Why didn't I even have a choice on whether he was coming over or not"

"Young lady I don't need your permission to do what I want. Now he's coming over, correct? I will be leaving before he gets he-"

"No. I don't want him coming over, we can change it to another day, I'm exhausted mother." I softly close my eyes and bring my hands to my temples, slowly rubbing them to try and unravel the tension that has built. 

"He is coming over, don't be so selfish Lilith. Canceling last minute is not something I raised you to do"

"Yeah yeah yeah. You did so well raising me, mother. It's not the end of the fucking world if I cancel on him. I'm 17 years old, I should be allowed to at least pick what plans I have to go to!" anger bubbles inside of me, she looks taken aback by my tone. 

"Don't use that language with me! I taught you otherwise. Now go get ready and clean your room before he gets here." she attempts to sound imitating but I just roll my eyes. She taught me otherwise? She barely fucking raised me. She sat back while my father abused me, she made me feel terrible as a child! She doesn't deserve the right to be able to claim she had anything to do with how I am. 

"You never did anything for me! If anything I was the adult before I even turned 10." I raise my eyebrows waiting for her reaction. I see tears start to weld in her eyes. 

You've got to be fucking kidding me. She is not pulling this stupid trick again. 

"I am your mother! I-i raised you and gave you life! How dare you be so selfish." she yells at me while tears leak out of her eyes. This trick used to work on me, she made me feel bad so I would listen. Now I'm just pissed. I scoff and turn around. 

I start to walk but stop, "if you plan one more thing without my permission I will not hesitate to expose you. I don't care if he comes over today anymore, but you no longer can tell me when I can and can't cancel plans." I finish walking to my room, ignoring her fake, overly loud sobs, her attempting to make me feel bad from afar. I slam my door, dropping my stuff on my floor and getting on my bed.