Hopes Of Anna

Chapter Thirty: Commitment.

      Dad had not come home since the incidence with Mom, so when he showed up at the door I did not know how to react. Andre was not home so it was safe. When Mom saw him, it surprised her but she did not charge at him. They did not have a normal conversation too. Mom was getting uncomfortable with every minute.
      I took Dad with me to my room. He kept talking about how much Andre and I had grown. My Dad did not know when and when not to bring up some conversations.
         'Dad, what's happening?' I asked hugging myself, seated on the floor. Dad wanted to lie but looked like he knew what was right.
          'Anna I'm sorry.'
          'Dad you were about to hit Mom! What's happening with you guys?'
           'Your Mom did something.' Dad said sadly.
         'Dad, talk to me.'
        'She wants to leave me.'
          'What?'
         'Your Mom's planning on leaving me.' Dad said. His hand shook and so did his voice. I did not still understand what he was talking about.
            'She wants to leave me!' Dad said in anger. I kept Dad quiet because I did not want Mom to hear us. I did not want my parents to separate, no matter how bad their relationship state is.
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         'Patel's got this with him.' Marie said throwing a pack of drugs at me. I was not interested in exploring it and my mind was not on this group.
      I received a text from Ludie:
           U okay?
     I looked at him from across the room. He waved at me then smiled. I nodded with a smile. Something was then thrown at my face.
         'What the!' I shouted putting my palm to my forehead Marie had just thrown a shoe at.
      Ludie stood up and grabbed Marie's hand.
       'What'd you do that for?' Ludie roared at her face.
      'I was talking to her but she wasn't listening.'
        'Don't do that to Anna ever again!' Ludie said. Caldwell who had been on his phone suddenly raised his head.
        'Dude chill.' Caldwell said.
       'I'm sorry okay?' Marie said sarcastically. Caldwell looked at me in puzzle.
       'Wha...what were you saying?' I asked.
       'We went to Patel's earlier today and found these drugs meant for patients with stuck or repressed memories.'
          'How do you know that?' I asked innocently.
          'Yes Anna! We do know how to read!' Marie fired at me.
           'Marie!' Ludie called out again.
            'Why the fuck do you keep getting into my business!' Marie said. Caldwell had gained full interest in what was going on and maybe felt insecure because he put his hand around my shoulder and looked Ludie right in the eye.
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    Caldwell drove for sometime then stopped to hit his steering wheel.
       'Fuck! I hate Ludie today!' He said banging it again.
         'Why? He...he stopped..he stopped Marie from––bullying me.' Saying this told me how immature I disgracefully sounded.
      'I want to be the only one to do that!' Caldwell shouted. I remembered when he was dancing with Lucie at the Christmas party.
       'Well you didn't do that.' I said in annoyance.
       'That doesn't mean he should. He isn't the one who's your boyfriend!' Caldwell stopped to breathe hard. He had said what his heart wanted to say.
      'Nei–neither are you.'
      'But our connection Anna!'
      'It's not official.' I quoted his same words that really hurt me. Caldwell placed his hands on the steering wheel and looked at my face. He banged against the steering wheel severally. He was troubled and fighting emotions he could hardly control. Then Caldwell came to calm and drew closer to me, taking my face.
    'I want it to be official.' He said kissing me. I was stunned but went on with it. As I kissed Caldwell, I remembered Ludie, and my first kiss with Caldwell, when I practiced kissing with a Bruce Banner photo (my all time crush!!!) and when I was trying to kiss Mark in the video. Caldwell separated from my lips.
   'Is that official enough?' Caldwell said making me break into laughter. 'Sorry for that rude first kiss...I hope this second one makes up for it.' Second?
     Caldwell continued driving while I was thinking of how wrong Caldwell's thought about my kissing experiences were. Would I have to tell him? I know new relationships should not be based on lies and lying always ruin relationships but...I can't just take that chance!
     I think Caldwell's always been honest with me about he and Lucie but any cheating  would be most likely to be committed by him. That made me the innocent one which meant I could tell him and he would take it as nothing...but then he and Ludie's relationship would be strained which makes it my fault....or could it be my lips fault?
    Oh I'm definitely not telling Caldwell!
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    Caldwell and I entered my house with our lips pressed on each other's which obviously surprised Mom and Andre.
      Mom had sparkles in her eyes when she blinked, her lips stretched as far as they could. Andre took a picture of us with us still kissing before jumping at Caldwell. I felt shy but really happy when I said:
     "Mom, I have a boyfriend."
     Mom screamed for joy giving me a tight hug. 'It's official!' She said. I finally heard it then. Anna Kendell, biggest dork in school has a boyfriend! And he is hot!
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       Caldwell was now my boyfriend, who now owes me daily compliments, flirty words, love, respect, fun, his cute... everything, kisses and most of all commitment.
       Commitment was what I wanted most because it was the biggest threat to "us". Caldwell was used to a hot girlfriend with a higher class than me but I didn't give a fuck, I was owed commitment.
       Speaking about commitment, what the hell was I doing here kissing Ludie? What the fuck?