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Chapter 5: Look Me In The Eyes
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"So~" He sang "I heard you swear quite a bit in class hm?" Kakashi Now stood while Ahmya sat on the couch looking up at him.
"U-Uh no?" She lied
"Oh? That sounded more like a question than an answer. Not only did you just lie since you Swore in front of me. But you also got into a fight!"
"But I didn't! I swear I was-"
"You also just returned to school and have already been causing trouble!"
"But Dad I swear I wasn't trying to get into any fights! Either way the train thing was like two weeks ago! Whys it such a big deal?"
Kakashi really didn't understand why he was always loosing his cool so easily when it came to her. Maybe this parent thing is rubbing off on him.
"Come on." He gestured for her to follow him to the yard. She got up and sighed in relief,
'So I'm not in trouble?' she thought and as if reading her mind, he turned to look at her.'
"Oh no your definitely in trouble. Your grounded for another day, we are going to increase hours and difficulty in training, and we are going to start training that rinnegan of yours." Ahmya froze and looked up at him as she stood in front of him.
He slowly lifted his hand and clutched the fabric, He slowly pulled it off her head. When he took the fabric off he noticed that she kept her eyes and head facing down. Kakashi frowned and lifted her head so she could look him in the eyes but she kept her eyes facing down.
"Ahmya. Why wont you look me in the eyes?"
"..." She kept silent as she was too afraid to look into the eyes of somebody she cared about with her own. Her own eyes that had witnessed her killing her best friend.
"Ahmya Look at me." His sterness made her flinch but she still did not look him in the eyes.
"Ahmya." His tone scared her. He was either really mad or just really serious.
"Look. At. Me." She tried lifting he eyes to look at him, Kakashi helped her by lifting her head once again so that she was looking into his eyes.
She tried to look away once again but Kakashi wouldn't let her.
"Dont be afraid. I know your still shaken up from what happened a few months ago." She quickly denied this.
"No i-..i'm fine...Theres nothing wrong with me." Kakashi frowned at her lie.
"Dont act tough around me. You dont have to act strong in front of me, Remember that." She averted her eyes from his and went to grab her fabric when Kakashi grabbed her wrist and shook his head.
"Tou-San..What..are you doing?" Her voice was weak and the retired ninja noticed how close to breaking it was. He knew she needed to start looking people in the eyes. He waited for a few months before realizing he was going to have to force her.
"Why wont you look me in the eyes Ahmi?" He had used the nickname he gave her a while ago. He saw a single tear leave her eyes as she quickly turned away to hide them.
"Im going to ask one last time. Why wont you look into my eyes Ahmi?" she allowed another tear to fall down her cheek.
"I'm scared.." She admitted.
"Scared of what?" Kakashi pushed
"I'm afraid if I look into your eyes with my own. The same ones that watched me kill him...That you'll leave me too...That you'll all leave me,I dont want to hurt anyone" Kakashi watched with soft eyes before realizing she was still hiding something else.
"But thats not all is it?" He watched her tense up as she clenched her teeth.
"Im scared...That if I look into your eyes. I'll see the same eyes of those people from my hometown, and...and-" Before she could finish Kakashi pulled her into a tight hug, She quickly hugged him back as though her life depended on it.
"Never." Kakashi said. "Never will I ever look at you with anything other than love." Her breath hitched as silent tears left her eyes.
"Your eyes...I wont leave you and you most certainly wont hurt me. I want to see your eyes brimming with happiness, But how could that ever happen if I cant see them? Dont shut people out, I made that mistake in the past. Please just let someone in. Let me in, I love you Ahmi and as your father I need to be there for you."
He hugged the girl tighter as she quietly sobbed. After a few minutes of attempting to calm down Ahmya stopped hugging him. Kakashi knew she would probably be looking down, so he crouched down to her level and forced her to look at him.
He still saw her doubt and fear,but It wasn't directed to him. No, It was directed towards anyone but him.
He smiled at her before once again turning serious.
He stood up and looked down at his daughter. Now that he saw her full face, She looked exhausted Mentally, and physically. He saw the eye bags and realized that she was Still having nightmares.
She needed comfort, no matter how much She thought She didn't or didn't want it.
He took her hand and led her to his room, while she was looking down the entire time and looked like she were going to pass out. He laid her down in his bed and laid beside her snapping her out of her thoughts. This action seemed so familiar to her. She was missing this comfort.
He slept beside her for the rest of the day even if it was only 5 pm. they were both tired, and for the first time in many months.
