After a failed coming out to a potential suitor, Jessie stumbles into the big beautiful back of Derek. No matter how many times she pushes him away, he is there. But will he stay when he finds out her deepest secret? Note, this story has mature content including references to bullying, suicidal thoughts, depression, body dysmorphia, BDSM lifestyle, and references to rape. Please read with caution as some scenes may be triggering. Also, judicious use of curse words because I need my mouth washed out with soap apparently.