"How was your grandma, is she any better?" I watched as she signed in the air while we laid down. Nova had been waiting for me when I got home this morning, more like noon. I kind of just folded in myself a bit, God forgive me for lying about grandma.
I nod and smile over her, "she needed me to set up her new phone."
"She needed you for a whole day?" She chuckled and I laughed a bit too. I just love her laugh, her smile, her goofy expressions.
"She asked me to stay, I don't see her much," I pressed my face into her shoulder. She smelled like Lina, their house. My lips meet her neck and she giggled a bit as I started to suckle. She pushed her fingers into my hair making me me suck harder I gripped her hips and held her until she pulled just a bit and I was about to pull her jeans until she tapped 3 times and I stopped, and looked at her.
"No," her smirk made me melt before she kissed my nose I nodded one last time before I kissed her lips, I dropped my head again, Twirling her hair in my fingers.
"I'm sorry." I whispered so she wouldn't feel me talking. I don't look at her because I know she's not looking at me. Her eyes are now focused on the ceiling with mine.
I wanted to say I loved her, because I do, but I felt like it was a cruel joke to say that without her attention on me, when I say I love her I want her to know I mean it, becauseI really do. But I couldn't take her eyes pressing into my soul for so long at a time.
I need her though, maybe I won't need her in the future, maybe I won't need anyone, but right now in this moment I need her with everything in me.
I'm messed up, I know that.
My phone buzzes in my pocket and I ignore it until it keeps going. I pull it out and see Lina's name.
Messages.
I get up and point to the toilet for my girl the see and she nods and lays back down. I close the door behind me and slide down It staring at the white marbled walls. I wanted to press myself against it, give myself a cold shock to snap something back right in me. Maybe if Beck punched me in the head I would just become right again. All wishful thinking of course.
I open Lina's messages cautiously, anything in them could easily break my heart.
L : I'm sorry,
L : I wish this could work
L : I really wanted this to work
L : I love you
L : You're with her right now aren't you?
L : it's okay, Chris, stay with her. She doesn't deserve to be hurt, especially not by me.I sighed and dialed her number and waited as the tone rang through my ear. She answered but she didn't say anything at first. When I opened my mouth her words started to flow.
"Chris," she sturmmered.
But I didn't, "Lina."
My chest felt heavy all over again, she's doing this to me again."You can't do this to her," she let out in a sad whine. She and I both know that'd true, I never denied it not even from the start of this stupid affair.
"I know."
Her sigh sunk deep in me, as she spoke,"so stop."
She's so tired, I can feel it. She doesn't deserve this. It's not fair. Why can't she have the love she wants.
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Little Lies (GirlxGirl)
Teen FictionA passionate summer affair between house wife, Lina and sporty teen, Christoph, takes a turn for the worse when the summer finally ends. Christoph is left in the dumps with a damaging secret and a quest to Find love elsewhere. And find love, Christ...