VERY CRINGE BOOK, I WROTE IT 2020 .
pick me girl vibes
"girl i know you got daddy issues"
"how would you know are you some fucking stalker"
started 19th of october 2020
finished 18th of march 2021
christmas was yesterday. it was so fun being with gus's family. i haven't had a christmas like that in i don't know how long. gus took me to spots he used to go when he lived there. he showed me his high school and mostly all the places he used to go to. our flight was tomorrow which is really sad because i don't wanna leave liza. i love her.
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lunaspen: current mood: i don't wanna leave long beach😁 (btw this pic is old lol) random.user8528:why is she with peep lol omgimwigs: @random.user8528 maybe cause there together lilpeep: beautiful baby lilpeep: trust me u wanna leave toopoor: cutie load more comments
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"so how many girls have you fucked here" i said. gus laughed. "only like two, i didn't have girls running after me in high school" gus said. "aw it's okay" i said hugging him. he rolled his eyes. "gustav elijah ahr did you just roll your eyes at me?" i said "yes i did luna helena aspen". gus pushed me down harder onto the pillow by kissing me hard. i put my hand on his cheek to deepen the kiss. then there was a knock on gus's door. i pulled away and looked at him. "can i come in" liza said "uh yeah mom" gus said.
skip to the airport.
"fuck" i said "you okay" gus said. "no i'm going to throw u-" i got cut off and ran to the bathroom. i puked a lot. the stall door opened. it was gus. "baby what's up" gus said "i don't know, gus what if i'm pregnant" i said. tears formed in my eyes. gus didn't say anything he held me while i cried my eyes out. "let's go home first, then we can talk about it" gus said. i nodded my head and followed gus out the door. what if i was pregnant i can't be. i have been feeling sick in the mornings recently.
we got onto the plane. i was quiet most of the flight. i had my head on gus's shoulder while he was listening to music. hopefully i just ate some- thing bad. please.
we landed after 6 hours. we got our bags and got in the uber. gus held my hand the whole time on the plane and in the uber. we got back to mine. the first thing i did was go straight to my bedroom and lay in my bed. "you wanna talk about it" gus said. i nodded my head. "gus what if i'm pregnant i can't be pregnant. i take my birth control everyday, we always use protection. it just doesn't make enough sense for me to be pregnant" i said. "luna, you might of ate something bad. half the time the street food from new york isn't fully cooked, don't worry baby. if you are we will work something out" he said. "okay" i replied back. he kissed me then we fell asleep.
3 months later:
hi... so a lot happened in 3 months. i wasn't pregnant for that asshole thank god. what happened was me and gus were both very drunk and probably high too. we had a massive fight. it was really bad.
flashback:
3 months ago.
[ a/n: the fight went on for longer but here's just a brief of it ]
"what the fuck" gus said "what do you mean what the fuck why would you say that when you know i get hurt about it gus!" i screamed at him. "all you do is talk about how shitty your life is" he said screaming back me. "first of i think your listening to yourself aswell" "shut the fuck bitch" "i fucking hate you, no fucking wonder everyone uses you" i screamed and ran out of his apartment.
flash back over.
yeah. he told me that i'm too controlling and that i only care about myself, plus a lot more. i haven't talk to him since then. he still comments on my posts. which i don't know why. also i'm dating brandon now and i'm very happy with him.
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lunaspen: happy birthday baby boy i love u thank u for being by my side🤎🤎 toopoor: so cute!!! toopoor: i miss u lunaspen: @toopoor i miss u :(( brandon_arreaga: i love u baby lunaspen: @brandon_arreaga 🥰🥰 lilpeep: when she hated him a few months ago😳 load more comments
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brandon went out with his family for dinner. since they came to la for his birthday. they didn't even invite me. its good. but layla texted me and asked me do i want to hang out. i said yeah. i was outside her apartment about to walk in.
i knock on layla's door. it opened straight away. "lunaaaaaa" nate screamed and hugged me. "i missed you" i said "i missed you too". layla opened her arms. i hugged her. "you don't realise how much i missed you" she said. "i know, i literally blanked everyone in my life". then he walked out. gus. now he had blonde and black hair. he looked good but drained. "oh" gus said to me. "oh hi" i said. we made eye contact for a few seconds, then broke it.
"wiggy come help me with this" layla said walking into her kitchen. i knew that she left me and gus together on purpose. i know i hated him but i wanted to see how he was doing. "so how have you been doing" i said. "really fucking bad" he replied back. i stayed quiet. "how have you been" he asked me. "been doing okay". "so your with brandon now" he said on a low voice. he was hurting real fucking bad. "yeah, have you any girls, right now" i asked. "yeah her name is alyssa" he said. "that's good i'm happy for you". he gave me a weak smile. yep i broke him. we broke eachother. obviously i love brandon. but my love wouldn't be as much as i loved gus. is gus even happy with his girl??. why do i care.
