daddy issues- lil peep

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luna's pov:

he pushed me against the wall and kissed my neck.
his hands made it down to my waist, he gripped his hands around it.

"lunaaaa helloooo" gus said. "sorry i was just thinking of something" i said. "anyway i wanna
dye my hair" he said. "gus you hair is dead" i
said touching it. "yeah i know" he said.
gus's phone buzzed. "shit i have to go" he said.
"what happened" i said. "tracy had a fight with someone" he said. "oh" "i really need to go i'll see
you tomorrow" he said hugging me. he gave me a small kiss on my head. "yeah" i smiled at him.

gus left. i really really really miss him. he's so special no one can beat him. he's the one i always go back to because i have issues and can't let go.
i looked through our old texts.

gus🥺

gus

hi baby gurlllll i just wanna say that ur the best thing that ever happened to me. your my favourite person ever and really good at sex😏 text me when u wake up LOVE U BOO
luna + gus = foreverrrrrrrr

i'm pretty sure he was drunk sending this text.

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then i start crying. the saddest part is luna+ gus = forever. i just felt like texting him and telling him i
still love him. i think my due my period cause i keep crying this week. not me making excuses for me crying a lot. i had to call someone. so i called layla.

20 minutes later layla was here. "baby your makeup" she said wiping my face. "i miss him so much" i said. she hugged me till i calmed down.
"thanks lay" i said. "come on let's go to sleep" she said. i love layla.

the next day. at gus's apartment.

"yeah when luna was not okay last night i was like what am i going to do" layla said to wiggy.
"layla shut uppp" i said. "what were you even crying about" wiggy said. i stayed quiet. "something" i said. "oh my god your pregnant" he said. "what the fuck no" i said. "good guess" gus said to wiggy. "can we stop talking about me crying and talk about something else" i said. "just tell us and we'll shut up" wiggy said. "nope" i said.

10 minutes later they were guessing and still asking. "wait i think" wiggy said. "what" gus said.
"you missed him" wiggy said. i stayed quiet.
"is that right" gus said. i still stayed quiet.
"okay let's talk about something else since everyone knows now" layla said. i got up and went to the bathroom.

i tried to calm myself down. someone knocked on the door. "uh one minute" i said. "luna its me" gus
said. i sighed and opened the door. he hugged me.
"i miss you too" he said. i pulled away and looked at him. i just felt like kissing him but i know i can't.
"come on" he smiled at me. i gave him a faked smile and followed him back.

we went back to everyone. "i think ima go home" i
said grabbing my things. "no don't go" gus said.
"i'll see you guys tomorrow" i said opening the door and walking out.

i went home. i needed to get out of there cause i knew someone was going to say something about to gus. i put my phone down on my counter top and grabbed a drink from the fridge. my phone buzzed. i picked it up. gus texted me.

gus🥺

gus

i'm coming to ur house

me

how about no😄

gus
already on the way😘😘😘

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i sighed and put my phone down. why does he do
this.

20 minutes later.

i hear a knock on my door. i look through the peep
whole. it's gus. i opened the door. he walked in.
"so what are you doing" gus said "nothing" i replied back. he came over and hugged me. "you know that i still think your the most beautiful girl ever" he said. i smiled at him. "thank you" i said kissing his cheek. "shit sorry" i said quickly. "it's okay" he replied back. he looked at me. was he going to kiss me?? no.

he grabbed onto my waist and pulled my closer to
him. he kissed me. wow. i pulled away. "come on" gus said grabbing my hand and bringing me into my bedroom. we layed down on my bed.
"luna" he said. i looked at him. "yeah" i said.
"will you be my girlfriend again" he said. oh my god was this happening. no it wasn't. "will you pass me over your phone charger" he said. "oh yeah" i said.

i keep imagining these scenarios in my head that i'm back with gus. even though he did kiss me.
but i just wanna be back with him. i'm just so angry at myself.

"gus i'm just going to be real with you right now" i said. "i still love you and i miss you really fucking bad, i don't know how i'm not over you
and i know your probably like this bitch is actually obsessed with me, that's cause i am. the first time we met i looked into your brown eyes, the prettiest eyes i have ever seen on someone. your different.
your literally everyone's dream boy. your hot,your funny,you respect everyone for there sexuality or gender aka you love everyone it doesn't matter there race, all i'm trying to say is that your my soulmate and i love you so much you have no idea."

he kissed me. "i still love you too, luna will you be my girlfriend again?"

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i hate myself.
i'm such a bad writer.
i can never write anything anymore i just get bored.
i have a really bad headache rn help.
peace and love.