VERY CRINGE BOOK, I WROTE IT 2020 .
pick me girl vibes
"girl i know you got daddy issues"
"how would you know are you some fucking stalker"
started 19th of october 2020
finished 18th of march 2021
recently me and gus have been staying over at his apartment,which is weird because we both love staying at mine,since there's literally no one there and everyone is in gus and tracy's. also my anxiety is getting worse everyday so that's not good,i don't wanna tell gus because i know he'll worry about me i don't want that. me and gus were sitting on his bed,he looked good. he has a "screaming inside" hoodie on and his hair looked so gooodddd,so i took a picture,so now it lasts longer.
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lunaspen:wow *comments disabled*
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"your obessed with me" gus said flicking through instagram. "bitch you can't say much either" he stared at me and shook his head. he knows it's true that's the thing. "how about we sleep for the whole day now" i say "how about we go and cry about our problems together" he says, "best idea ever" "come on" he said opening his arms and pulling our bodies to lay down.
[ a couple of a hours later ]
i woke up,still in gus's arms. it felt like i have been asleep for days,my phone is beside me,i looked at the time 6:12pm. fuck,why do me and gus always fall asleep for hours even though we only wanna sleep for 2 hours. "gus" i said shaking him gently "mhm" "it's 6:12pm you have to record with nedarb now" he gets up fast. "shit thanks for reminding me" he says kissing me on the cheek and running out his bedroom door. he literally was recording downstairs and he acts like its fucking a mile away.
"i'm finally back" gus said "what song did you record" i said sitting up. "oh just a song called backseat with tracy" "can i hear later" "um maybe" gus said. "what you wanna do now" i said "smoke some blunts,eat food and sleep" "good enough for me"
tracy ran into gus's room,there's something called knocking does he know what that it. "there's a party at 8" he said "are you guys gonna come" "yeah we'll come" gus said tracy nodded his head and walked out. "gusssss whyyyyy" "listen it won't be that bad okay,we can stick with eachother the whole night" he said "okay but i'm going to be literally glued to you soo" i said "i don't mind" he said smirking.
i literally rarely bring,dresses to gus's. so now i'm going have to try pick something nice that i brang with me. i put on ripped tights,platforms,baggy shirt and skirt underneath that you can't really see.
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people are probably gonna think that this outfit ugly and that's fine i'm not trying to impress anyone,well maybe gus a little. i don't really care if gus doesn't like this outfit though,i couldn't find anything else. i just do light makeup,i'm doing this now because i'm lazy and won't get ready later.
i go to the kitchen,were im guessing gus is. "what the fuck are you wearing" horse said "does anyone else hear the annoying voice" i say "horse just leave it your fucking self" gus said. that just made him more hot,sticking up for me,um yes i love that. i sit beside gus on the couch and ignore horse. "who's going to the party" i say "obviously gbc, ghostemane that's all i know" gus said "WHAT GHOST IS GOING TO BE THERE" "yeah" "I MISS HIM I HAVEN'T SEEN HIM IN LIKE MONTHS" i say loudly,sorry i miss that motherfucker he's so funny. "seems like you like ghost a bit too much" tracy said "uh bitch no it's literally nothing like that at all" i snap back at him "okay" he said then walked away. i look at gus his head is down staring at his lap,he looks sad i probably shouldn't not of done that. i'm dumb. i kiss gus on the cheek and put my head on his shoulder. "is it like that with you and ghost" gus whispered into my ear. "no,not at all gus i would never do that to you". he gave me a weak smile,i wrapped my arms around his neck, "no can be lil pepe" i say "you mean no one has this pepe" gus said i stared at him and shook my head "gus im disappointed right now you could of said a better joke" i say "i'm sorry" he pretends to fake cry. do i love him? no i don't or do i????? HELP i don't know. yeah i like him A LOT. he's so cute ahhh
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love of my life. anyway gonna rant,so skip if u want ig. we all know "corpse husband" ,like who doesn't he's a perfect human,even though no one knows what he looks like.thats not the point but i have been watching his 4 hour stream from a week ago or something and i'm still not done it help. rant over sorry. i'll do a spelling check tmr
