VERY CRINGE BOOK, I WROTE IT 2020 .
pick me girl vibes
"girl i know you got daddy issues"
"how would you know are you some fucking stalker"
started 19th of october 2020
finished 18th of march 2021
london has been good so far. we have been here not even 3 days and every night we have been crashing at gus's apartment. come over when you sober is dropping today. there is a surprise party for gus later.
i got up from gus's couch and walked into the bathroom. gus was talking a shower. "uh fuck sorry" i said walking out. gus laughed. "it's good it's not like you haven't seen anything" he said. i bet he was smirking say that. i stood outside waiting. "can i go for a piss" i said. "yeah i'm nearly done" gus said. it was also like 9 in the morning why was gus awake. well he used to the time zone.
"there" he said walking pass me and into his room. "thanks" i said. he smelled good. i used to bathroom and knocked on gus's door. he opened it and oh my god. he had pants on but no shirt on. his tattoos. wow. "what's up boo" he said grabbing me into his room. "this is where all the magic happens" he said. i laughed. "yeah i say there's a lot of magic going on in here" i said. "when's the last time you had sex" gus said. "uh." "tell me" he said. "i don't know with you" i said looking out his window. "boo that was fucking long ago" he said. "yeah i know, it doesn't really bother me" i said still looking out the window. i felt gus kiss my neck. i turned around. i cupped my hands on his face. "you know we can't" i said. "just once" he said. i kissed him. "there you go" i said patting his cheek and walking over to open his door. he looked back at me and smiled. cute. i smiled back at him and opened his door.
i went back out to the living room were everyone was sleeping. layla woke up. "fuck my head hurts so much and i didn't do anything" she said. "it's probably for sleeping on that un fuck comfortable couch it's rock solid" i said. gus came out of his room with a t shirt on. "we should go out for breakfast" gus said. i liked this gus. he was mostly sober and he actually wanted to do things.
skip to the hotel.
i hopped into the shower. did my makeup, let my hair air dry and put a nice outfit on.
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i walk out of the bathroom and gus was in our hotel room. "your gonna wanna wear a jacket boo" gus said. "yeah i forget it was cold here" i said throwing my old clothes beside my suitcase. yeah i'm very lazy.
"do i look okay?" i ask layla. "yeah you look sexy" she said. "thank you" i said kissing her cheek. i love her.
we went to this cute cafe. i'm a very picky eater so i don't know what i was gonna get. i ended up getting pancakes since i don't really like bacon and eggs.
"what time does the album drop" i ask gus. "it should be on all platforms hours ago" gus said. "why didn't you say anything, i thought it was dropping later" i said. i walked over to him and hugged him. "still my favourite girl" he whispered into my ear. i pulled away and smiled at him.
a couple of hours later.
me and layla got tracy,gus and nate to take gus out so we could prepare for the party. we put banners up. it was only gonna be us and some of his friends he knows here. ugh also some people from his label. i hate them. anyways. his manager got custom bannners which was really nice still hate him though.
me and layla went back to our hotel and got ready. the boys were coming back in like 2 hours. so we needed to get ready now and then make are way back over to gus's apartment. his roommate gave us a spare key to get in.
i ended up wearing a short side cut dress.
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me and layla looked so good. well mostly layla.
we got back to gus's apartment and finished a couple of different things that we needed to do. nate texted me and told me they were on the way back. a couple of people came. not many.
everyone hid somewhere. we heard the door open. "SURPRISE" everyone screamed. gus jumped, it was kinda funny.
people came over to gus to congratulate him. i was so happy. most of the songs on the album are fucking good. gus came over to me. "was this your idea" he said. "yeah well kinda me and layla planned it" i said. "thanks boo" he said hugging me. "your welcome and your a real rockstar now you have an album" i said. he laughed. "what's your favourite song on the album" "mmm probably problems, u said, better off dying,save the shit aka most of it" i said. "i'm glad you like it boo."
— hi. i think i'm depressed again. anyways. thanks for the love on this book. love u. peace and love.
