Can love be found

Chapter Twenty

The next morning I got everything packed for us and headed down to the desk to check out. We meet the other two in the lobby. Brad goes out to get the truck and brings it around. We put the luggage in the back and climbed in to head home.

"Are you okay, baby?" I ask.

"Yes, I am fine for now. I have taken my pain meds." Jacob answers.

"Okay, you sit up front where you have more room to stretch out. Crystal and I will be okay back here."

"All right, it will feel strange not being able to drive my own truck, haha."

"Are you one of those that won't let anyone drive their truck?"

"Maybe, just a little."

"Seriously, dude! The only reason I am getting to drive your baby is because you only have one arm and you can't move real well. So you don't have a choice." Brad says as he rolls his eyes and Crystal bursts out laughing. Jacob pouts and I lean up to kiss his cheek and he smiles back at me. The trip home is slow. We have to stop many times so Jacob could get out to stretch and move around. The trip was getting to him and he just wanted to be home and in his own bed. There was something that was bothering him and it worried me. He wasn't his happy self and he was very quiet. I suggested we stop and get a hotel room so he could rest but he said he was fine and wanted to get home. I didn't want to push it too much so we pushed on for him and eventually made it back to the farm. We got into his room and I helped him undress and get into bed. I climbed into bed next to him.

"Come here, doll. You won't hurt me. I just want to fall asleep with you in my arms."

"Are you sure. I don't want to hurt you. Are you okay? You have been quiet the whole way home."

"I'm fine, just in my head too much."

"You know you can talk to me, right?"

"Yes, doll. Just not ready to do that now."

I curl up carefully with him and we fall asleep. The next morning I wake up before him and head downstairs to make us breakfast. Brad and Crystal are already eating when I come down.

"Hey girl, how is he doing?" she asks.

"As well as can be expected. I'm just a little worried about him though. He is just too quiet for him. He won't tell me what is going on."

"He will be okay. He gets like this sometimes. He had a traumatic experience. Give him time. He will open up. You just need to be there for him." Brad adds.

"I just hate seeing him like this."

I place everything I made on the tray and head up to the room. He is still asleep and I place the tray on the dresser and crawl into bed next to him. I lay next to him and stroke his cheek trying to wake him.he slowly stirs and opens his eyes. I kiss his lips and get up to grab the tray and bring it back to the bed and help him sit up.

"Breakfast in bed, thanks doll. You are so sweet to me."

"Anything for my cowboy."

It was a couple weeks that he stayed in the house and I worked from his house. It was so great that my boss let me do that. I just couldn't leave him alone. He was getting better and stronger. He still wasn't telling me what was going on in his head but I could wait. He would tell me when he was ready. I was getting ready to start dinner and went to ask him what he would like. For some reason he was not in the house. I went outside to look for him and found him sitting on the couch by the fire pit. His head in his hands. I sit down next to him and wait for him to notice me. He lifts his head and looks at me and I can see the fear in his eyes.

"Talk to me."

"I don't know. That ride has got me messed up. I am scared to get back up. I saw my life flash before and I saw what could have been missed. It scares me to get back out there and something happens again. I can't do that to you again any of my family. My uncle died that way and for some reason it scares the hell out of me. It has never bothered me before."

"I understand baby. That scared us all. You can't let this situation win. You are stronger than that. I will always be here for you and stand behind you in whatever you do. This is you. Everything you always wanted to do. We can get through this."

"You know how much I love you, right?"

"Yes, and I love you so much too."

He leaned over and kissed my lips as his tongue slid over my bottom lip and I opened them as his tongues slid in to dance with mine. It had been so long since he kissed me like this and it was amazing. I could feel my cowboy coming back to me. It was a small step but he was coming back and it felt like things would be okay.