Black And Green

Twenty Six

E m i l y

The next day, I was avoiding Draco as much as I could. Even at Potions I didn't even looked at him despite the times he was trying to talk to me. When the bell rang, I was watching him as he quickly gave the essay (which I literally threw at him last night) to professor Flitwick and he came in front of my desk.

"Emily, you can't ignore me forever" he said and I continued packing my stuff. When I was done I stood up and started walking outside of the classroom. He called my name multiple times but I didn't turn around.

"I am speaking to you" he hissed and I felt him pulling me back from my shoulder.

"I know. I just don't want to talk to you" I said calm and he exhaled rubbing his hand against his hair.

"I know. But look, I didn't do it on purpose I really forgot about it. I am not good at words, you know what I mean" he said fast and I raised my eyebrow smiling at him.

"That doesn't delete what you did" I said and he nodded.

"I promise to never forget about you when I will be fucking Pansy at the bathroom" he said and I rolled my eyes laughing and I punched with my hand his shoulder.

"Tonight, astronomy tower at 10 pm. Got it?" he asked and I nodded positevely.

"Yes, but I will see. I maybe want to have sex with Oliver" I said sarcastically crossing my arms and he rolled his eyes.

"Honestly he is too low for your level, maybe Zabini could do the job" he said and I made a disgusted expression.

"Zabini is an asshole. Also I don't want to speak to him after what he did to me so Pansy could keep pinching me" I said annoyed and he nodded.

"Yeah, I know" he sighed.

We didn't say anything for a couple of seconds so I looked him and said, "Alright then, see you".

He winked at me before turning around to leave and I was heading to the Great Hall to find the other ones at lunch.

"Hey guys" I sat next to them and they all looked at me weird.

"What's going on?" I asked confused. I glanced at Neville who was staring down at his hands.

"Somebody tell me!" I yelled annoyed and I saw that Hermione was ready to say something.

"Neville heard you talking with Draco Malfoy. He heard you two being like... really close" she finally said and I frowned confused.

"That's it? That is what happened?" I asked and he glanced at Harry before looking back at me.

"Yeah but don't you think is wrong? After what he has done to Harry and what his family is?" Ginny asked and I opened my mouth surprised with their behavior.

"They are all death eaters Em" Ron added and that's when I felt ready to explode.

"First of all my personal life is non of your business. Me and Draco are just talking I can't understand why this thing bothers you" I barked and Harry stood up from his chair putting his arms on the table and leaning towards me.

"How do you think Sirius would react if he heard this huh? That his daughter is friend with a death eater?! " he asked pointing at me and I was looking at him furious.

"He is not a death eater" I hissed raising my eyebrows.

"Yet!" he shouted. All of these started to reminding me the beginning when Harry and I were always fighting between us.

"Stop pretending like you know everything!" I hit my hand hard on the table and the crockery were shaken.

"Emily, you need to relax-" Hermione's voice said calm to me.

"No! I am not going to relax! You never accept anything I do. I always try to fit in your standards and I still fail. All my actions disappoint you and e-everything I do is just a mess!" I said pulling my hair from the anger. I was furious, my eyes were full with hate for them.

"You want to control me," I turned to speak to Harry this time," so you will feel appreciate from Sirius, but he is the same as you. He is not satisfied with anything in this world and he pretends that he knows everything! I can see the similarity between him and you now" I said to him and he sat down on his chair looking away.

"You can't even look at me in my eyes. But that's what happenes when people don't like the truth served in fornt of them" I said bitterly and I felt a hand touching my shoulder.

"That's enough" George said from behind me and I nodded.

"That's enough" I repeated his words and grabbed my bag before started walking away from the Great Hall.

I went outside of the castle and I was walking to Hagrid's house. When I got outside it was locked and that's when I remembered that as a teacher he is having lunch at the school. I was ready to leave, when I heard a noise coming from behind the house so I did all the way around.

"Pegasus" I sighed surprised and went to him slowly. He was tied up in a tree and when he saw me he started jumping from his enthusiasm.

"Easy" I said putting my hand on his head and caressed him a little.

Then, the most crazy idea came to me. I could be expelled if someone sees me but literally who cares anymore?

"Come on Pegasus" I said and untied him from the tree. I climbed on its trunk and then I suddenly jumped, thankfully falling on his back easily.

"Okay that's it!"I said and it started running fast. Then it opened his big shining wings and started flying up to the sky.

I felt more free than ever. I was leaving toxic people behind me, people that I grew up with. I was feeling sad about it but what about myself? Everyday pretending that I am okay was really stressful for me and it was only making me worse. No one of them had ever understood that I struggled with life and when they did they just ignored it. No one had the courage to deal with the depressed girl so they decided to ignore me. If I wasn't reactive from my own, they'd destroy me completely.

Pegasus' roar made me stop thinking about them and enjoy the view. It was still sunny and the forest looked less scary than ever. The lake wasn't frozen now but it was still cold. That's what I realized when we went really down and I put my hand in 'ripping' it in half.

"It's time to go back, Hagrid will come back in any minute" I said and he started flying lower to get us down.

"I am sorry but I have to do this" I said when I tied him, it really made him sad.

"I will come every other day, okay?" I said and he made a happy sound.

"I don't know if you are messing with me or you really understand me" I laughed and grabbed an apple from the tree and gave it to him.

I was leaving in hidden spots so if Hagrid came he wouldn't see me next to Pegasus and start questions. Turns out he was still in the castle and I was now going normal back inside. But when I entered, I didn't know what I should do. I couldn't go at dorm room or the Great Hall, I really don't want to see them. So what's next is the library and I will borrow a book to read since I am done from my schoolwork until probably the end of the week.