Black And Green

Ten

E m i l y

"No. Leave me" I hissed and threw his hands away. Sirius looked at me confused and Remus stood next to him.

"Emily.. Your father wants to help you. Explain us whats in your mind and we will help you" Remus said slowly and I was feeling my whole body shaking.

"You don't know how I feel" I was trying not to start crying.

"It's too late" I added. It's been one year since I have changed. Since I have started hurting myself, cry myself to sleep and no one ever noticed. Because that's how much they care about me.

"No its not. If you just explain to me-" Sirius tried to reach me but I took a step back.

"Where have you been this whole time huh?!" I snapped angrily. By his expression I could see he was not expecting this reaction from me.

I was now screaming and crying at the same, "When I needed you? On my darkest times? Just tell me why you were doing the blind on your own daughter?" I started hitting him on the chest bursting out and Remus pulled me away, stepping in front of Sirius.

"It's not your father's fault that he was in Azkaban" he said raising his eyebrows.

"Shut up Remus. This isn't about you! This is about Sirius and how he abandoned his own child!" I screamed and pressed my nails into my skin.

"I am here now! I will do whatever it takes for you Emily" my father said and I closed my ears not letting his words affecting me.

"I am sick of your lies! I know you won't, because I am not Harry! Forgive me for not being the child you wanted to have" I said sarcastically and he looked at me with his eyes wide open.

"You are saying gibberish, Em" Sirius took a step forward. Don't let him in again, Emily.

"Then say it. Choose me over him" I challenged him. My eyes were full of tears as he was thinking of an answer.

"Say that you love me over him. That I am on the top of your list", he was still silent which was killing me so I snapped in front of him.

"Say it!" I hit the table hard. With my side sight I caught Hermione jumping a little from the noise.

"I.. I can't" he whispered and I nodded my head exhausted.

"That's what I thought too" I said wit bitterness and took a big breath looking up.

"But Sirius, she is your daughter..." Molly said 'reminding' him.

"It's okay mrs Weasly.." I wiped my tears away.

"He doesn't feel like a family to me either" I ran upstairs shutting the door behind me. I heard steps coming closer so I locked it immediately.

"Open the door Emily" Sirius said calmly outside.

"No. I won't" I said sharply and I heard him sighing.

"Open. The. Door." he said tensed, I could feel how angry he was.

"Open the door Emily. Open it!" he shouted and started hitting the door hard. I was just staring at it, knowing that it was possible for him to break it because of its weight and size. That door was huge.

"OPEN THE DOOR" he kicked the door and before I realized it, I was crying.

I was sobbing. I couldn't breath for a couple of seconds, it was like I was having a panic attack or something.

"OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR EMILY, NOW!!!" he shouted so loud that it felt like he was next to me but five meters were apart us.

He continued screaming for me to open the door and I couldn't take it anymore. I burst into my bathroom and opened my drawer.

"GET OUT OF THERE NOW. NOW!!!"

His words only made me crying more, desparetily and tired. The first drops of blood I noticed on the bathroom floor was when ny dad was still screaming my name to not do anything stupid.

How ironic is that?