Black And Green

Nine

E m i l y

When I went downstairs I realized the Weasly family was here.

"Are you ready kids?" mr Arthur asked and we all nodded.

"Okay, Emily you can go first" mrs Molly gave me the green powder and I stood into the fireplace.

"Diagon Alley" I said very clear with confidence and threw the powder into the ground. I was surrounded by big green flames and when I opened my eyes I was finally at Diagon Alley, in a dark corner. George then appeared next to me, wiping off some dust from his clothes.

"The rest of them will come later. Harry messed the words and they are going to find him" George said to me.

"Wait, really?" I asked trying not to laugh, but a little worried too about him.

"Yes, don't worry. The will handle it" he said and pulled my hand so we could start walking.

"Where do you want to go first?" He asked me.

"Flourish and Botts actually. I am looking for a book" George made a disgusted face when I mention the word book.

"As you wish" he opened the door for me and we entered to the store.

It was full with books, as always. Enormous towers of books, some of them were even flying, talking and messing with people. I lost George for a second and I went to get a book of Magical Creatures that Hagrid asked us to.

After a little search, I managed to find the book at the back of the library. I was ready to start searching for George so we could leave but a voice spoke to me.

"Well well well, what do we got here?" Malfoy's arrogant voice said to me.

"I will never get rid of you huh?" I rolled my eyes and tried to pass him but his 'little' guardians didn't let me.

"What you got there?" he asked and took the book harshly from my hands.

"Hey! Give it back Malfoy" I warned him and he raised his eyebrows on me.

"Or else, what? What are you going to do Black?" he asked with a smirk on his stupid face.

I was ready to tell him to piss off and much worse, but someone answered faster than me.

"Is everything alright here?" George appeared and put his arm around my shoulders.

"Oh, your little poor boyfriend came here to protect you?" Malfoy said faking for being scared.

"How pathetic" he continued, spatting his words out.

"Give it here Malfoy" George was serious and tended to take to book.

"Take it. I don't think both of you have enough money to buy it anyway" he back off and I grabbed it before he could change his mind into being an ass again.

"You fucking -" George was ready to start a fight but I pulled him back terrified.

"George, leave it. Let's just leave" I almost begged while he was trying to get to him over me.

[..]

"And Emily didn't let me kick his ass!" George shouted and everyone gasped disappointed.

"Emily why you didn't let him?" Ron asked while he was chewing. I raised an eyebrow to him.

"You mean why I didn't let him hit Malfoy in a bookshop? I don't know you tell me Ronald" I rolled my eyes and Molly came into the kitchen that time.

"Emily behaved how she should have. Why are you all blaming her for a thing like this? And you George Weasly could get in so much trouble!" Molly argued with her son.

"Thank you! Finally someone!" I raised my hands annoyed with them. Everything is my fault for them, even this with Malfoy.

"I mean Emily, you could just stay back and let George do his job. I don't know why you interrupted" I heard Sirius from my right saying.

That's it. This pain. It came back. This big pressure in my chest is back, like my heart is not working. But you know what? It never left. I always thought it did but it didn't. It has always been here and I try to ignore it everyday. But how am I supposed to do it, if stuff like these happen everyday?

Everyone blames me, even my dad for something so stupid. I am so tired of them. For everyone on this table.

I stood up suddenly making a big noise with my chair. I felt I was going to get sick as I looked each one carefully in the eyes. Sirius tended to grab my shoulder but I flinched away.

"Please Emily, let's not have the same again" Harry said from across the table.

"What are you talking about?" Sirius asked him curious. With my eyes wided and my voice taken away, I was waiting for Harry to answer. Well, I was hoping he wouldn't actually.

"I have to tell him, Hermione" he whispered to her and she shook her head.

"It's her choice if she wants him to know. Don't do anything!" she said loud.

They will tell him about my hobby. What they 'force' me to do, so I know that I am not numb and I can feel pain. A pain that they made me love. They made me get sick and love hurting my body because they have been scratching my soul all these years.

"Somebody tell me what is happening right now!" Sirius screamed and hit with his hands the table making din.

"Harry..." I warned him, my voice was shaky. I was begging him with my eyes.

Please. Don't say anything. It will only make things worse.

"TELL ME NOW!" Sirius shouted worried and looked at Harry.

"I-it's Emily. She cut herself" Harry said and my dad looked at me confused. Everyone was quiet, not a single sound.

"What do you mean she- Emily come here" he ordered and I was frozen. I wanted to leave, to run away. I didn't want any of these, I was happy by myself.

When he saw I wasn't going, he sighed and started walking furiously at me. My blood turned cold as he took my wrists on his hands.

"Emily, tell me. Is this true?" he whispered, before checking or anything. My voice was taken away, my throat was hurting.

"I-" was the only thing I said and I am pretty sure it was so quiet that he didn't heard me.

Then with a sudden move he rolled my sleeve up, holding me against him so I wouldn't go. His eyes scanning all over my hand and then the spot where it was full of scars.

"What is this, baby? Why you do this to yourself?" he placed my head inside his hands and looked me straight in the eyes.

I couldn't look at him. I was not embarrassed, more like tired. I knew that this day would come but I have never figured out what I would say at this situation.