I can't take it anymore, I'm sorry (Iwaoi and Sakuatsu Angst) [Discontinued ATM]

Chapter 29

Third-Person's POV

Oikawa just finished cooking and the three of them is already eating. "So Atsumu... Do you somehow feel like that setter rival of yours has a chance winning the position of a setter over you?"

Atsumu slowly looked at Oikawa before looking down at his food again. "Sorry... I forgot to tell you, I'm not playing Volleyball as a setter anymore. I'm playing as a Wing-Spiker"

Oikawa had his eyes open and Ushijima is coughing looking at Atsumu. Ushijima and Oikawa looked at each other then back to Atsumu then to each other again

Oikawa looked at Ushijima his eyes full of worries slightly glancing at Atsumu. Ushijima nodded his head before looking at Atsumu

"Atsumu are you sure about this?" Ushijima asked. Atsumu looked at him then smiled and nodded his head

"I also want to play Wing-Spiker because a team can't have two Setter and I don't plan on taking it away from Oikawa. If I even have a chance against him that is"

"... Atsumu if you ever change your mind you can talk to us, Do you have anything in your mind right now?" Oikawa asked standing up and walking towards Atsumu's side moving his chair to face him and knealt in front of him caressing his hands

Atsumu put his head in Oikawa's shoulders and his tears coming out. "I just don't have the confidence to play that position anymore..."

"I feel weak just thinking about playing it..."

"And every time I try to set a ball I always see their faces glaring at me and judging my every move"

"I feel used every time i think of playing as a setter... I don't feel fine, I feel useless"

"A worthless and feel like I'm always inferior, I don't feel good every time i set it feels like I'm always being compared to anyone"

"I feel degraded... I feel unneeded, Not necessary someone who is can easily be removed"

"And every time I set it makes me remember Osamu's face spiking my sets... And I don't want to remember that anymore"

Atsumu cried out his hands clenching unto Oikawa's T-shirt. Ushijima walked towards then and patted him on his back

He sat on the ground and pulled Atsumu in his arms and hugged him petting his head while Atsumu is crying on his shoulder blades. Oikawa looked at Atsumu and looked away with tears in his eyes slowly getting pulled in the hug by Ushijima

Oikawa's body reacted hugging Atsumu and Ushijima just whispered sweet things even though even he is unsure if its right to say those things. This never happened to him before and he never got into this kind of situation but he is just letting his gut tell him what to do

Somehow after a few hours with them in that position it turned quite. He looked at Atsumu and the boy is asleep hugging him

When he looked at Oikawa, Oikawa is looking back at him with puffy eyes. He knows this was supposed to be a sad moment but... Oikawa just somehow look so cute to him