I can't take it anymore, I'm sorry (Iwaoi and Sakuatsu Angst) [Discontinued ATM]

Chapter 11

Third-Person's POV

Atsumu woke up few minutes ago and his just looking at the moon. Still

His asking himself a bunch of Why's.

Why did he do it?

Why did this all happen?

Why is this happening to him?

Why is his life like this?

Why are they treating him like this?

Why do no one understands?

Full of Why's that he knows can never be answered unless he fight until the end.

He wants to fight sure he do. But... Its harder than he makes it sound like

Every hour there's this feeling from his heart that makes it hard for him to breath.

Every minute there's always this questions that pops up to his minds. What if's that he wished happened

Every second images from what happened from years ago up to this day always pop up his mind

He felt very depressed. His body wants to stay alive, But his mind is choosing to die

He heard it from someone before and it felt like its happening to him now. That he have it now, He knows for surely that he have depression

Because someone told him that Depression is having a body that fights to stay alive and a mind that wants to die. He for surely knows what it feels like right now

His own mind is betraying him. Showing him memories with Sakusa, With them together smiling and having fun

That never happens.

Those are just the images of his playful mind. It hurts him so much every time he sees it in his mind

Because he knows that never and never will happen. His heart aches every time his mind reminds him that

But his fighting the urges to cry because he had enough of that. He tried to stood up but a hand stop him

"Where are you going?" Oikawa asked

"The window?" Atsumu answered weather unsurely

"... I'm too scared of you doing something so I'll just accompany you to it"

"It's literally like 5 steps away" Atsumu claimed

"I never said anything about being worried you will fall. I'm worried you will jump"

Atsumu fell silent and just let Oikawa support him towards the window. He looked up the moon then asked Oikawa

"Don't you ever have those times where you feel like the moon is the most perfect company you will have?" Atsumu asked Oikawa

"Huh? Why, No" Oikawa answered Atsumu looking at him weirdly

"The way it reflects the sun's light and make it his own"

"Isn't that just like The Moon is stealing The Sun's light because it couldn't make its own light" Oikawa answered

"It's just like humans. When they don't get what they like they took someone else's, And act as if its theirs" Oikawa added

Atsumu looked at him and smiled sadly. "So like... The sun's light is cheating on the Sun with the Moon"

"Yeah... And they've been doing it since the moon orbits the sun" Oikawa answered

"That's is pretty sad for the sun. The Sun let's The Moon revolve around and orbits The Sun when the Moon is just stealing his light because it can't make its own" Atsumu stated

"Don't pity the Sun. The Moon isn't intentionally taking the light away from the Sun, It's just really that the Sun is so Carefree that some of his Light is running about on space and The Moon is where it goes. So in reality none of the two face of the earth is right The Moon takes what isn't his and The Sun doesn't care enough to watch how much light The Sun emits" Oikawa explained

"So there's really always two parts of the story Huh? Don't just start making conclusions out of one part of it" Atsumu said

"That's right. There is always two parts of a story, Don't make decisions listening only to one part of it"

"Now you should go back to sleep because you are going to be seeing a Doctor tomorrow" Oikawa said and ushered Atsumu to bed. Tucking him in and sitting beside him

"Have you realised?" Atsumu asked

"Hmmm?"

"You've been acting like my Mother since I woke up" Atsumu said. Oikawa looked at him with wide eyes and his face turning red

"H-hah? Don't make me laugh I can never act motherly" Oikawa stated

"But that's what you've been doing. You're going to be a great parent when you grow up" Atsumu said

"Yeah... I hope so"

"Enough with the chit-chat go to sleep" Oikawa claimed

Atsumu just smiled before closing his eyes.

Oikawa looked at the Moon.

What kind of stupid thing did you say?! The Moon stealing the Sun's light and The Sun being Carefree?!

Where the heck did you get that!?

It's like you're telling a story book to a toddler!!

'You'd be a great parent' I hope so too. I want to treat my future kids the way they should be treated

And its of course with love and passion. I would never dare neglect them!!

I hope my parents did the same thing but...

Never mind that!! I'll make sure I'll be a great one when I grow up

Have a family full of love, A person who will take care of my future children with me, And a child or two that will make my heart melt with their cuteness and respect

I want kids who knows what to do and what to not do to others. And I don't want them to experience this kind of pain I am experiencing

I want them to live a very happy life

I wish... I could have all of that with him

I want the person to have children with is him

I want him to be part of my future family

I want him to be the father of my future children

I want him to stay in my life so badly

"Iwaizumi..."