I can't take it anymore, I'm sorry (Iwaoi and Sakuatsu Angst) [Discontinued ATM]

Chapter 35

Third-Person's POV

Oikawa moved his head side wards avoiding Ushijima's lips. Ushijima looked at Oikawa with hurt face until he saw Oikawa's sad and indicisive eyes

"What's the matter?"

"I-It's nothing... We better get going"

"Oikawa... Can you please tell me what's the matter? You trust me right?"

Oikawa looked at Ushijima's eyes with tears in his. "I'm sorry for putting a burden on you... You wouldn't have needed to fly all the way to Korea if I just chose not to burden you... I'm sorry for needing your help... I'm sorry"

"Huh? Oikawa? What do you mean a burden? Who?"

"Me... Both of me and Atsumu's problems... I'm sorry for troubling you, I'm sorry for dragging you down with us"

"Oikawa no... You're not burdening me, I came here because I want to... And you're not dragging me down, I told you I would protect both you and Atsumu"

"You can say that but that doesn't change the fact that if only I was strong enough... If--

"I'm sorry..."

"Ushijima? Why are you saying sorry all of a sudden?"

"I'm sorry for not asking for your reasons that time... I'm sorry for being too angry... I'm sorry for letting you go... I'm sorry for hurting you... I'm sorry for not asking your side of the story... I'm sorry, If I just asked for your reasons when we were in middle school maybe you should not have needed to feel the pain you're feeling right now. If I just trusted you and had faith on our relationship that time, I'm sorry because if I just trusted your love for me and not over think of you not loving me anymore. I'm really sorry for trusting you on Iwaizumi, If I just knew that what he would bring to you is just pain and regrets I wouldn't have trusted you on him. I'm sorry" Ushijima's tear flows down on his cheeks. Oikawa's eyes widen as those words left Ushijima's lips

"I didn't chose Shiratorizawa because I feel like my sets are still not good enough for you so I wanted to get ready until I'm good enough to be your setter, When you just left me that time I thought at least maybe you're just shock. But when you didn't answer any of my messages that week I knew somethings wrong, I tried talking to you so many times and tried telling you my reasons but you were really angry that time and you didn't even want to see me. Iwaizumi comforted me that time... Then when you suddenly texted me telling me we should break up my heart shattered to pieces I didn't know what to do, I tried going to your house but when I did you did not open up. Remember I did that for at least three consecutive days until Iwaizumi came running after me and just told me to stop and give up... He told me that maybe that is for the best... And I believed him, Afterall you didn't even want to see me so why would I?. And that's why I stopped going to your house and blocked your number, Not because I didn't love you because I know I'm still not good enough for you"

"Who said you're not good enough? You're more than enough!! For me you're the best setter I could have... If I just knew this was what you're thinking that time... I'm sorry, Oikawa I'm sorry"

"Shh.. Shh... Its alright, I know you didn't want to hurt me... Its alright... You're not the one that should apologise, it's me, Maybe you would not have think that I don't love you anymore if I just showed you how much I love you"

"You did show me... Its just that I'm too busy over thinking the possibilities that I forgot how much you showed me you loved me"

I still do

"Oikawa... You will and would never be a burden. I would give up everything: Even Volleyball, Just to make you happy. You're the person I once and would always love"

Ushijima's eyes looked directly on Oikawa's before slowly moving his head down and connected his and Oikawa's lips. He was hesitant at first but when Oikawa didn't push him away he started moving his lips slowly

Oikawa's closed eyes made Ushijima close his aswell. He could feel tears flow down Oikawa's cheeks as he continues kissing him

He caressed Oikawa's cheeks with his left hand and held Oikawa's waist with his right. He feels euphoric with Oikawa in his arms again

As Oikawa's arms snaked around his neck he deepened the kiss. Oikawa's lips opened surprising Ushijima from the permission he had given

Ushijima slowly entered Oikawa's lips and brushed his tounge against Oikawa's. As he moved his tounge with Oikawa's the boys submission made him really happy

He slowly explored Oikawa's cavern feeling very satisfied. Ushijima slowly lifted up Oikawa and placed him on the counter

He gently pulled himself from Oikawa and their lips moved away from each other with saliva connecting their lips. "I love you..."

"Let me Court you?" Ushijima added. Oikawa nodded his head as an answer

"Don't answer me until you're fully healed. Understand?"

"I love you..."

"And until you are healed I'm going to court you"

"I love you..."

"I'm going to make sure that no one hurts both you and Atsumu... So please focus on you healing first. Understood?"

"I love you..."

"I-... I love you too"

Oikawa hugged Ushijima and kissed his cheeks.

"I understood... I love you"

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I know this is super late and I'm sorry for that...

Anyways Goodnight, Good morning, And Good afternoon