Marrying Agustina Del Mundo (Unedited)

Chapter 31

David

Even if I don't think about it, maybe I feel enough that I am going crazy, I am stunned when I see Agustina, my heart is not so calm myself yet.

"I know ... Hindi ko lang siya gusto ..." my chest throbbed so hard, that's all I could hear because Daddy and I were both still silent, he was just looking at me. Sobra na ako'ng kinakabahan, hindi ko na alam kung ano pa'ng dapat ko'ng sabihin.

"I'm having a hard time ... I can't be bothered when she's there, I almost look like a fool when I see
her ..."

I just can't really accept myself.

"Maybe I can't accept that I fell for Agustina, Daddy ..." I don't know if my chest is nervous or what.

Nakatingin pa din sa akin si Daddy, naghihintay sa mga sasabihin ko pero ako wala ako'ng masabi, wala ako'ng maidagdag dahil mayroon parin sa akin na hindi ko matanggap. Nag-aalangan pa din ako.

Pakiramdam ko mahihimatay na ako, halos hindi na nga ako makahinga sa sobra'ng bilis ng kabog ng dibdib ko. Hindi ako makatingin kay Daddy, baka kung ano lang makita ko'ng itsura niya.

Maybe even with Daddy, I can just say I feel okay with me. Whether I was good or not I had to say, I would not be relieved if I did not tell him.

"I don't know, I suddenly felt like I couldn't sleep for almost a few days." I took another deep breath before I spoke.

"I'm a mess with my feelings and thoughts."

"Agustina? Do you love her?" I bent down but I couldn't help but widen my eyes, I didn't even tell him he knew right away. Dahan-dahan ako'ng nag-angat ng tingin, napapanganga na lang ako.

"D-Dad..."

"Yes, You are inlove." Napalunok ako, naintindihan at nakuha niya kaagad ang mga sinabi ko. Kahit kaunti lang alam na niya kaagad kung ano'ng nararamdaman ko. Samantalang ako kung hindi din umamin si Leigh hindi din ako mapapaamin.

I stared at Daddy especially in his eyes, I kept wondering if what I was doing and what he was saying was right.

"Sa mga sinabi mo, talaga'ng nahulog ka na sa kanya." Gumalaw ang mga labi ko, nanatili pa din sa akin kung ano'ng mga nararamdaman ko noong una kami'ng nagkita. Talaga'ng wala'ng tigil ang kabog ng dibdib ko habang nakatingin sa kanya baba ng hagdan at papalapit sa amin.

I will never forget that because that is why I started to get confused and change how I feel. I was able to cry and not be understood by others.

"But I'm still scared, Daddy, I still don't know what to do."

I saw Daddy's snout slightly, as if he could not accept what I said.

"Afraid? You know, Son when you love you should not give in to fear." Daddy said. "Are you afraid for what others will say?" he shook his head. "Whether she is a real woman or not, if you really love her you will accept her very much."

"You don't care what others think or say." He smiled slowly. "That's the beginning, that's not how you will feel yet." Tumango-tango ako. Kahit papaano gumaan naman ang nararamdaman ko, naliliwanagan na ako.

"Dad..." tawag ko nanaman sa kanya. "Dad, I'm sorry sa lahat ng ginawa ko..." Binaba ko nanaman ang tingin ko. Sobra 'yung ginawa ko kaya kulang pa ang sorry na sinasabi ko.

"I'm sorry, I didn't understand you." I was surprised by what Daddy said, I was also nervous right away. Does he know anything? I do not tell them what what. My chest throbbed. I don't want him to know what I'm going through with my friends until now.